I have finally emotionally broke down.
I am gone.
This blog is closed.
1/03/2008 10:44:00 AM
i jus wanna cry...i am so sad now i could jus cry without sound. seriously.
1/02/2008 10:39:00 PM
i dunnoe why the freak i am blogging...guess i really had to let it out somewhere already....i really am starting to break down. and i really neeed immediate help. or i might jus.....i dunnoe.....
shd have jus drown myself jusnow. damned.
1/02/2008 10:34:00 PM
i don't know why...but i seriously feel that i could really just die from the amount of pieces my heart is shattering into...millions, billions, zillions....
Its not the same as before i don't know y...did i really matter to you in the first place? or did i put in too much and tot you wanted it...i dunnoe where to start coz everything jus felt wrong now...receiving your calls din mean as much...meeting you din mean as much...everything jus din feel and mean as much as b4. I jus dunnoe y...............................................
Had a great time today...seriously...though it was simple though it wasn't the most glam or most whatever u people call it...i really liked it. everything was simple jus like i always like things to be...it was just u and the beach and peace...it mite seems that i was jus normal or jus emo or whatever it was...i really liked it...really really love it. damn i am crying again =(. stupid stupid ger.
but then i cause it to happen...it was my fault...if.....if....if....then yah......whatever stupid me.
someone, please jus take a knife and jus stab me many many times and make sure i die...i swear i wouldn't blame u. jus remove me from everybody's life...i really dun deserve aniting....i m jus so tired le....given up all hopes....hopes of happiness hope of sadness hope of everything....everything.
i jus wanna hide...hide from everything....i am not as brave as what i appear to be. to people i may appear to be this ger that is strong that noes everything that is everything e verthing.....but i am not.........................u shd jus see the way i cry everytime.......................i am nothing but strong.
so please jus kill me. please.
1/02/2008 10:22:00 PM
hi everyone! I'm back again and as u can see a new layout too :D
back to school already. Gosh! the workload is super duper scary,seems almost impossible to finish everything. But the timetable is super slack, so slack that...fine its just slack. =.=" hmmm but for the first week it seems okok la...got to meet my hubby a few times...so it just made my day :D oh yea yea yea..friday no school one! see i told u it was slack rite? bleah >.<
oh yea and picture of my ring too :D
oh and wanna see us in forever eternity? LOL!
paiseh i now abit siao...coz very cold aircon blowing in my face....then excited la so long nv post heehee!
oh and for the past one month...i've been working at siemens macpherson. Good nice people there...felt great working there:D really miss them la...haiz....
okok guess i gotta go do some work already...otherwise i'm dead then not enuff time to meet hubby next week! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
okok will update soon again...
10/27/2007 10:58:00 AM
Bye my dearest friend, Bye Weichoo...
My dearest friend
"Chua Weichoo"
17 October 1988 - 13 August 2007
You will always be on my mind...Forever.
My dearest friend"Chua Weichoo"
17 October 1988 - 13 August 2007
You will always be on my mind...Forever.
Why did u have to do it? why weichoo? Y?!
u promised me to tk good care of yourself, y did u lie to me? why didn't u call me like always when u wanted to tok to me? u would always call me when u were down...
you always tell me that u miss my singing...you love to call me and ask me sing songs to u...please, please come back and i will always sing to u...whatever songs u wan...aniting.
why did u have to break ur promise? u promised me that u would be my bridesmaid when i get married, that u would be my baby's godmother...didn't u? you have not even see me get married but why did u have to leave?
you used to love to see me cook, love to eat my sphgetti that i cook and i remembered tapaoing to school and u came to meet me to eat the sphgetti...you also love the chicken soup that i boil that time u came to my house to drink.
weichoo...please tell me y...y did u have to abandon me...y?u told me u would always be there...and if there aniting we could tok it thru? didn't we?
we haven did that D.I.Y facial that u wanted remember? u also asked me to teach u do make up and facial mask everything, to teach u to cook for ur future husband, to sing to u...but how am i going to do that when u r gone? how...?
but u left...u left me here...u left all of us behind...how could u bear to do such a thing?
the last time we went out on sat, you were still awrites isn't it? what happened? why didn't u tell us aniting? there were shaun, me, seige and jean? we were all there for each other, u could have tell anione one of us aniting...weren't we good enuff to be ur friend to lend u a listening ear to hear the woes u have?
u r still young, so young, you even asked me to introduce u a bf didn't u? u haven celebrated ur 21st birthday, u have yet to find someone who loves u, to get married and have ur own kids, to set up ur own family. why would u wan to choose to abandon all these and leave for somewhere faraway alone?
when seige told me yesterday, i really hope it was jus a joke. i keep telling myself, nah its jus a great prank great joke by them to spoil my first day of my holiday. but it wasn't. the cold hard truth sinks in.
i m nv gonna get to sing to u again, never gonna get to cook for u again, never gonna get to sing to u again. and when i would so automatically call 96838739 always, it will never be you answering the phone again.
bye weichoo...although we have only known each other since secondary school days which means for about 5 years...i am go glad that i have found u. i will never forget the memories we have tgt and i will always remember u.
i hope that you would find peace and warmth in that faraway place since there were none when u were here...please tk care wherever u are and i hope that u would be smiling now as i do not wan to always see u sad...
BYE, forever.
8/14/2007 02:02:00 PM
Thanks to my few close friends who have been so concerned abt me these past few days!
now i hope everything is awrites, really awrites :)
aniwae...i want to eat at these few places:
1)Marina Bay that BBQ adult $12 that one OR
2)Seoul Garden
3)ajisen
4)the place where my darling brought me for nasi lemak! at tanjong pagar there...woah eh damn nice ok no kidding i seldom say food nice this one BEST LA!!!
so actually the 2 most which i wan is the marina bay one and the nasi lemak lo....then i can shun bian tabao the ikan bilis too....hehehhehe....sooooooo anibody wan go with me?
4/03/2007 09:28:00 AM
Happy valentine's day my dearest darling daniel :D
i jus want to thank you dan, for trying so hard, even though you are so busy with ur work and all, in order to make time to accompany me. true...although its only less than an hour plus a short dinner at ur workplace...i still feel that i am the most loved, blessed, fortunate woman in the world <3
this year's valentine's day actually started with him calling me half sleepy and all...and saying "Happy Valentine's day dear 我爱你" then ask me faster go sleep liao...super good dreams :D
then this morning jus after i open my eyes, he called me
Dan: 老婆，起床了啊？几点上课啊？
Me: 老公早安！我啊，十一点上课咯。。。
Dan: 有没有人在家？
Me: 干吗啊？
*in the bkground i can hear " Storey 10, going up..."
Me: 你在哪里啦？为什么上班可以上到十楼去的啊？
Dan: 在上班啦！猪都没那么大只！
Me: 不要跟我说。。。。你到底在哪里啦！喂!
*DING DONG*
*rushes to open the door*
*stares blankly in shock*
Dan: 不要给我那个猪脸, 快开门啦!
*closes the door*
*Dan gives me a tite squeeze huggy and put his hand around my waist*
Dan: Happy Valentine's Day dear
*gives me a nice sweet kiss*
*censored*
my god! he sneak some time outta work to jus come accompany me for awhile la! i nearly cried, i swear! then after all tuck me in to bed again then go back work...
SO SUPER SWEET *muacks*
then after school i went to packet sushi for the both of us for dinner lo...then took a bus to his workplace to eat dinner with him...i noe i noe...no candlelight no nothing jus me him and sushi. ok and a few kachio-ing colleague...they come kachiao and all wanted to cope sushi...but NOOOOOOOOOOOO they are nv gonna get their hands on our love sushi dinner hmph!
p/s: now theres this info spreading super fast in his workplace that i am his 老婆...heh heh :D
aniwae to those feeling dissapointed with their dates...cheer up:D at least u had sumone with u...
although my valentine date with my dearest dan is only erm last that 2 hours in total? i still had a great time...seriously no kidding...
i love you dear, i really do :D
my one and only daniel <3
2/14/2007 11:10:00 PM
hmmm...i have no choice but to accept it la...i mean i've gotta be understanding and know that his work is important
"i have to spend this year's valentine's day alone."
but i guess its awrites...i mean there will be many more valentine's day ahead for us...and everyday that i am with him its valentine's day rite? i tink his work is more important...after all his financial is quite tite now and all...so yea...maybe we can celebrate another day like a day b4 or sumting...we'll figure it out :)
i mean...duh! i will feel alittle dissapointed and all...tot we could have a lovely time that day...i mean i even spend a BOMB on his present and i even took a longgggggg time to wrap his present.
it is it nice? its the bag he always wanted...
aniwae...Happy Valentine's Day Dear
2/11/2007 01:23:00 PM