Y Thursday, September 29, 2005
Hmm....i just came back form the airport....sad it was....and afraid i am....but let me sae wad happened fers...
My uncle, who is my fathers younger brother, my cousin's father, and my godmother's younger brother....has just departed for narita airport in tokyo for a business trip for years....and will onli be back for a break next may or sumting liddat...
And i mus sae...i haven been close to this uncle of mine...didn't speak to him much and stuff so yah....lets continue...
so we went to send him off everyone except my grandma who is his mother coz she went on a cruise trip and my family....shan't explain much...on y and stuff....
then when my uncle went to hug my godmother, she jus broke down in his embrace....and cried real bad...and i didn't see my godma cried that bad b4 other then the death of my grandfather....who is her father....then everyone one walked to the departure gates....
and guess wad
i cried too....oh yah...the wife who is my auntie was alreadi crying real bad....but the kids weren't...then...suddenly when my uncle was walking towards the gate...my cousin joey who was the elder among my two cousins....sec 1...she jus burst into tears...and i literally emphasize BURST....she jus really cried real badly and really cried till i also cried....real pathetic man...but yah...
aniwae....the things that got me wondering was....
1.wad if it was my dad going instead....
(i would freak out really freak out coz i really love my dad alot...alot...alot...so i would start
working and go join him there)
2. IF i didn't make it to the local uni....it means i would have to go overseas....
(And that means....it won't be long in another abt 4 yrs or less? that sux too)
wadever its is...i nv use to feel sad and wanna cry at the airport...maybe i am used to it...numb already to pple coming and leaving my life....so...quite surprised i cried this time...but wadever...i am jus sick of pple leaving my life...
hmm gonna slp soon...gotta work tmr yet..and btw...srry to u for not being able to find u a job....coz really cannot find...srry dude...if u r reading this...lol....
9/29/2005 03:02:00 PM
Y Sunday, September 25, 2005
hmm....got back ma exam results....not that fantastic and all...but i am quite happie lah...coz firstly...i can go into the next semester...and next...i didn't fail a single thing!!!
Results as follow:-
NMM-C
DCNK-C
IISO-A
CMATHS-B+
PRSP-B
APEL-P
i noe...not that good...but rmb? i am quite awrite with it...thou mus study harder next time...
kk....now working and stuff and some collegues commented some stuff...lol..definately....pple change...due to mani cicumstances....
kk gtg....parents fighting...damn sian..alwaes...and ma stupid sis....jus sitting there enjoying a show...dots
9/25/2005 09:06:00 AM
Y Monday, September 19, 2005
hmm....gonna start work tmr again...i mean yah work...and u may ask the reason why eh?? lemme see....
1. i nd some dough to survive?
2. Use the time to keep myself 'entertained'
3. prevent myself from over-decaying
and some other reasons lazy type liao....lol
time past...its already september...soon to be october....and october is a significant month to me i mus sae...october....sweet october...sweet sweet october...
aniwae....here i have to do it...srry dude for the belated wishing
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIM SHIXIONG.....lol....
forgot abt that yesterdae...days past too fast liao...didn't now it arrived so soon....
so....Banana Split Banana Split Banana Split....hehe....rmb hor...BANANA SPLIT....
9/19/2005 09:10:00 AM
Y Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Hmmm....realised the skin is changed again...coz i bo liao....bored so change lo....not bad rite?? except the alignment of the whole thing....tink it is not made to 1024 by 768 thats y liddat....
aniwae...i am having holidays now....gettin real bored here man....lol....nothing to do....vcds, vcds, vcds and vcds.....or ya and msn, online pool, gunz, and nothing else....lol...sound very interesting rite?? i knew it...lol....suffering same symptoms like seige...haha....bored tio liao....
tmr will go gran hse to rot...then thurs got class bbq....my new class de...at east coast park arh....last time nv go...not feeling well and stuff...then this time shd be going lah...otherwise my xiao mei sure kill me le...lol....hai.....
i am jus 17....sounds old, yet not that old....it means 2 things.....i have spent 17 yrs of ma life alreadi.....then the next would be i would still have at least 40 yrs to leave....long long time to go....
siao liao...i wan go plae gunz liao....train train then go scare ivan...heh heh....level 9 le wor...althou still ge lan lah....but nvm....TRAIN!!! he 22 level leh...kao....tk long long long long long time to reach that level i tell u....kk gtg le...
ciao
9/14/2005 08:21:00 AM
Y Sunday, September 11, 2005
*phew*.....i am finally done with all the work......
Hmm....didn't update for very long le....coz gt exams....assignments....lots of stuff....lol..but i am finally FREE!!! i am so happie....once again to celebrate...i stayed overnite in ma grans hse again......i chiong vcds yesterdae till 3 plus then slp till 11 plus todae sia...lol....
Yet...thou i may be free rite now.....there are still things i have to worry...coz my piano theory coming soon october 26th i tink....stress again.....but now i shall give my self a proper break....(and so shall tgoc go plae with his hamster or dota ba....lol....) still i am sian...
I have requested to go back to work at my ex-workplace....there are lots of memories there...i have seen office politics, see the many stuff that kids normally dun get to see....its actually a rough place outside...but the main thing is....the memories i have....
The last time i went back was to help pass time and to relive the memories....i had to find a place for me to work to forget everything...i will never forget the memories that i had.....the travelling...the going out after work....the accompaniment or aniting....lol
Hai....gtg nw...go watch tv with ma gran liao....kk another time ba....
9/11/2005 08:12:00 AM
Y Saturday, September 03, 2005
Listening to: When I Dream by Carol Kidd
As i listen to this song, it just brings back lots of memories that can only be imagined and replayed in the head as it doesn't exist anymore. Maybe you would understand what i mean or maybe you wouldn't, its alright as nothing matters anymore.
Its been about 5 months since i am alone again. It could be a blessing and yet, be a regret in my life. Days past, weeks past and months past. It doesn't matter anymore, does it?
I got along in life, in fact getting what I hope to get, and it seems that nothing could have been better. I did well in examinations, got along with new friends, past life the way it should be etc. I should be elated. But then I realise somthing - though I have gotten on with life, but I guess the only thing that I have also gained would be loneliness.
Nights when i would cry, times when i when i would break down, be afraid of the quietness without you, afraid of the loneliness that you have given me. But what could I do?
Nothing, but to just carry on walking on with life, alone in this whole world.
I could put makeup on, put on happy faces, be happy in front of others. But deep inside, I am lonely, afraid, tired. I am nothing of what i have displayed. I am not happy and neither would i be blessed.
I could build a mansion
That is higher than a tree
I could have all the gifts i want
And never ask please
I could fly to Paris
Accept my beck and call
Why do i live my life alone
With nothing at all
*But when i dream.........
I dream of you........
Maybe someday you will come true
When i dream........
I dream of you......
Maybe someday you will come true*
I could be the singer
Or the clouds in anywhere
I can call up someone
To take me to the moon
I can put my make up on
And drive men insane
I can go to bed and all
And never know his name
Chorus*
This post is me trying to paint a picture of a woman being lonely and all, thinking about the times of her with her ex-love, and that she has lost that love and that it could never come back. The lyrics may be wrong, i just hear the song and type the freakin song out.
9/03/2005 01:47:00 AM