A pEaCeFuL LiFe____*//

2008-01-03T10:44:00.000+08:00

I have finally emotionally broke down.

I am gone.

This blog is closed.

2008-01-02T22:39:00.001+08:00

i jus wanna cry...i am so sad now i could jus cry without sound. seriously.

2008-01-02T22:34:00.001+08:00

i dunnoe why the freak i am blogging...guess i really had to let it out somewhere already....i really am starting to break down. and i really neeed immediate help. or i might jus.....i dunnoe.....

shd have jus drown myself jusnow. damned.

2008-01-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

i don't know why...but i seriously feel that i could really just die from the amount of pieces my heart is shattering into...millions, billions, zillions....

Its not the same as before i don't know y...did i really matter to you in the first place? or did i put in too much and tot you wanted it...i dunnoe where to start coz everything jus felt wrong now...receiving your calls din mean as much...meeting you din mean as much...everything jus din feel and mean as much as b4. I jus dunnoe y...............................................

Had a great time today...seriously...though it was simple though it wasn't the most glam or most whatever u people call it...i really liked it. everything was simple jus like i always like things to be...it was just u and the beach and peace...it mite seems that i was jus normal or jus emo or whatever it was...i really liked it...really really love it. damn i am crying again =(. stupid stupid ger.

but then i cause it to happen...it was my fault...if.....if....if....then yah......whatever stupid me.

someone, please jus take a knife and jus stab me many many times and make sure i die...i swear i wouldn't blame u. jus remove me from everybody's life...i really dun deserve aniting....i m jus so tired le....given up all hopes....hopes of happiness hope of sadness hope of everything....everything.

i jus wanna hide...hide from everything....i am not as brave as what i appear to be. to people i may appear to be this ger that is strong that noes everything that is everything e verthing.....but i am not.........................u shd jus see the way i cry everytime.......................i am nothing but strong.

so please jus kill me. please.

A new start again...

2007-10-27T10:58:00.000+08:00

hi everyone! I'm back again and as u can see a new layout too :D

back to school already. Gosh! the workload is super duper scary,seems almost impossible to finish everything. But the timetable is super slack, so slack that...fine its just slack. =.=" hmmm but for the first week it seems okok la...got to meet my hubby a few times...so it just made my day :D oh yea yea yea..friday no school one! see i told u it was slack rite? bleah >.<

oh yea and picture of my ring too :D

oh and wanna see us in forever eternity? LOL!

paiseh i now abit siao...coz very cold aircon blowing in my face....then excited la so long nv post heehee!

oh and for the past one month...i've been working at siemens macpherson. Good nice people there...felt great working there:D really miss them la...haiz....

okok guess i gotta go do some work already...otherwise i'm dead then not enuff time to meet hubby next week! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

okok will update soon again...

2007-08-14T14:02:00.000+08:00

Bye my dearest friend, Bye Weichoo...

My dearest friend
"Chua Weichoo"
17 October 1988 - 13 August 2007
You will always be on my mind...Forever.

Why did u have to do it? why weichoo? Y?!

u promised me to tk good care of yourself, y did u lie to me? why didn't u call me like always when u wanted to tok to me? u would always call me when u were down...

you always tell me that u miss my singing...you love to call me and ask me sing songs to u...please, please come back and i will always sing to u...whatever songs u wan...aniting.

why did u have to break ur promise? u promised me that u would be my bridesmaid when i get married, that u would be my baby's godmother...didn't u? you have not even see me get married but why did u have to leave?

you used to love to see me cook, love to eat my sphgetti that i cook and i remembered tapaoing to school and u came to meet me to eat the sphgetti...you also love the chicken soup that i boil that time u came to my house to drink.

weichoo...please tell me y...y did u have to abandon me...y?u told me u would always be there...and if there aniting we could tok it thru? didn't we?

we haven did that D.I.Y facial that u wanted remember? u also asked me to teach u do make up and facial mask everything, to teach u to cook for ur future husband, to sing to u...but how am i going to do that when u r gone? how...?

but u left...u left me here...u left all of us behind...how could u bear to do such a thing?

the last time we went out on sat, you were still awrites isn't it? what happened? why didn't u tell us aniting? there were shaun, me, seige and jean? we were all there for each other, u could have tell anione one of us aniting...weren't we good enuff to be ur friend to lend u a listening ear to hear the woes u have?

u r still young, so young, you even asked me to introduce u a bf didn't u? u haven celebrated ur 21st birthday, u have yet to find someone who loves u, to get married and have ur own kids, to set up ur own family. why would u wan to choose to abandon all these and leave for somewhere faraway alone?

when seige told me yesterday, i really hope it was jus a joke. i keep telling myself, nah its jus a great prank great joke by them to spoil my first day of my holiday. but it wasn't. the cold hard truth sinks in.

i m nv gonna get to sing to u again, never gonna get to cook for u again, never gonna get to sing to u again. and when i would so automatically call 96838739 always, it will never be you answering the phone again.

bye weichoo...although we have only known each other since secondary school days which means for about 5 years...i am go glad that i have found u. i will never forget the memories we have tgt and i will always remember u.

i hope that you would find peace and warmth in that faraway place since there were none when u were here...please tk care wherever u are and i hope that u would be smiling now as i do not wan to always see u sad...

BYE, forever.

2007-04-03T09:28:00.000+08:00

Thanks to my few close friends who have been so concerned abt me these past few days!

now i hope everything is awrites, really awrites :)

aniwae...i want to eat at these few places:
1)Marina Bay that BBQ adult $12 that one OR
2)Seoul Garden

3)ajisen

4)the place where my darling brought me for nasi lemak! at tanjong pagar there...woah eh damn nice ok no kidding i seldom say food nice this one BEST LA!!!

so actually the 2 most which i wan is the marina bay one and the nasi lemak lo....then i can shun bian tabao the ikan bilis too....hehehhehe....sooooooo anibody wan go with me?

2007-02-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

Happy valentine's day my dearest darling daniel :D

i jus want to thank you dan, for trying so hard, even though you are so busy with ur work and all, in order to make time to accompany me. true...although its only less than an hour plus a short dinner at ur workplace...i still feel that i am the most loved, blessed, fortunate woman in the world <3

this year's valentine's day actually started with him calling me half sleepy and all...and saying "Happy Valentine's day dear 我爱你" then ask me faster go sleep liao...super good dreams :D

then this morning jus after i open my eyes, he called me

Dan: 老婆，起床了啊？几点上课啊？
Me: 老公早安！我啊，十一点上课咯。。。
Dan: 有没有人在家？
Me: 干吗啊？
*in the bkground i can hear " Storey 10, going up..."
Me: 你在哪里啦？为什么上班可以上到十楼去的啊？
Dan: 在上班啦！猪都没那么大只！
Me: 不要跟我说。。。。你到底在哪里啦！喂!
*DING DONG*
*rushes to open the door*
*stares blankly in shock*
Dan: 不要给我那个猪脸, 快开门啦!
*closes the door*
*Dan gives me a tite squeeze huggy and put his hand around my waist*
Dan: Happy Valentine's Day dear
*gives me a nice sweet kiss*
*censored*

my god! he sneak some time outta work to jus come accompany me for awhile la! i nearly cried, i swear! then after all tuck me in to bed again then go back work...

SO SUPER SWEET *muacks*

then after school i went to packet sushi for the both of us for dinner lo...then took a bus to his workplace to eat dinner with him...i noe i noe...no candlelight no nothing jus me him and sushi. ok and a few kachio-ing colleague...they come kachiao and all wanted to cope sushi...but NOOOOOOOOOOOO they are nv gonna get their hands on our love sushi dinner hmph!

p/s: now theres this info spreading super fast in his workplace that i am his 老婆...heh heh :D

aniwae to those feeling dissapointed with their dates...cheer up:D at least u had sumone with u...

although my valentine date with my dearest dan is only erm last that 2 hours in total? i still had a great time...seriously no kidding...

i love you dear, i really do :D

my one and only daniel <3

a lonely valentine's day...

2007-02-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm...i have no choice but to accept it la...i mean i've gotta be understanding and know that his work is important

"i have to spend this year's valentine's day alone."

but i guess its awrites...i mean there will be many more valentine's day ahead for us...and everyday that i am with him its valentine's day rite? i tink his work is more important...after all his financial is quite tite now and all...so yea...maybe we can celebrate another day like a day b4 or sumting...we'll figure it out :)

i mean...duh! i will feel alittle dissapointed and all...tot we could have a lovely time that day...i mean i even spend a BOMB on his present and i even took a longgggggg time to wrap his present.

it is it nice? its the bag he always wanted...

aniwae...Happy Valentine's Day Dear

I LOVE THIS YEAR'S CHRISTMAS...BECOZ OF U :)

2006-12-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

after thinking and thinking i have decided that i MUST blog abt today...coz i really felt real happy :)

so today i woke up and get ready to meet my dear after not seeing him for so long :'( coz i was away in taiwan heh heh...

so i got out of the house with my christmas present for him and the goodies i got back from taiwan...then i reach my house downstairs and WOOSH....soooooo cold...its raining TERRIBLY...then i bo bian...hold my little red unbrella and walk to the busstop lo....but i was late :x heh heh so he wait for me at interchange lo...hahahaha....

then the day begins....we watched a show that i brought the dvd then after the show i zzzz....he complaint i PIG PIG >.< say i turn over only then POOP sleep liao...haha...then he kachiao me when i sleep (he say one) ....kanna bully again...

OH YEA....and before the show...he gave me my present :) my first ever official present from him :) guess what it was....

he gave me a ELLESSE WATCH :) I LOVE YOU DEAR

and he also liked my present...but sumhow i feel bad....my present seems like a little fry compared to his present....and i also feel bad for making him spend so much on me...sorry dear...but i promised to treasure it :)

then after that we took mrt to tampines then we decided to mam mam coz we both hungry ghost le...he very amazed at my eating routine for today sia...haha...coz that meal i ate with him was the breakfast-lunch-dinner for the day BWAHAHHA....

we decided to eat seoul garden...we eat and eat....hahaha my dear can eat ALOT sia...hahaha..keep stuffing me with food say i mus eat more more...today never eat aniting...then say i dunnoe what weak weak la -.-" haha....so i eat eat lo....then eat so happy :) then we go walk walk...so nice...holding hands and all.......

I LOVE THIS YEAR'S CHRISTMAS!!!!!! and....

I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!!

ok...i can imagine seige's face while reading it ...haha...

aniwae merry christmas to all...

revived

2006-09-17T10:03:00.000+08:00

my life is complicated to me...kk at least to me :x

haiz...i dunnoe...i like Mr M. but there seems to be many stuff to overcome. O.O and the best part is...i am unsure of his direction. he did told me b4 that he knows abt the feeling i have for him, and i can similarly sense the feeling he has for me. however... we are still who we are...no improvement (ok maybe there is but not for the status part) and definately no de-improvement. I dunnoe, feel like asking but u noe me...i dun dare LOL

There was sum analysing done for me by one kuttu. ok firstly is that we did erm yea :x so he was saying if that were to happen he mus liked u rite? then its kinda obvious la...at times he is so super caring la...i dunnoe..

I DUNNOE :'(

ok enuff bullshit abt Mr M

I got the results back.....and....i am promoted :D aniwae i wish all my friends the best of luck if they have to tk sup paper or retake a stupid stinking module. Good luck :D

kk gotta go make my chesse cake pie now :D

and u noe what...that stinking asshole went back to that stupid place AGAIN...WTF...u are stinking ******* and u are going back to that place away from ur *******...u seriously have a problem woman...u sux...I HATE ***** WOMEN...

a lil better...

2006-08-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

wah i din noe that the previous post was like ultra emotional...i read it again and i got into the *weeping* mode again....:x

today was a lil better...got a good news in the morning and that is...*drums roll*

i may be able to go back which mean :D what can be better than this... :D

ok aniway, just feeling icky because i seem to you know, get the older guys :x Man, i want a normal life. Is this some kind of joke? because if its not a joke? then those people up there, wake up please, obviously you have just screwed some poor little girl's life. HAHA, not funnie at all...

Gosh all these "studying" is getting more confusing as i go along. Why?

1. I don't remember studying those stuff (seriously)
2. Its confusing
3. Its just a computer with some metal stuff everywhere, whats the big deal?
4. No mood?

kk all those reason up there, number 1 seems the most likely reason. I seriously have no memory whatsoever that i did learn those stuff :x and this only spells one thing. DEATH.period.

I am so happy let me announce. ITS HERE :D bwahahaha told u i am crazy and psychotic.

and seriously i always have to quote seige...and that is my hormones are twisted or sumting...i tink its true...

And people out there? do not try drinking. its not a good source to help u forget ur woes. its addictive. its stupid. its waste of money becoz if u overdrink and u puke, what a waste. its dumb.

but guess what

I am one of those dumbass who drinks. :x not good...

Its always about you...

2006-08-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

You

i really miss you.
I really so.
There is never a time where i have never missed you.

Whenever i see the sea, i think of you
Whenever i see a car, i think of you
Whenever i see a Heinkein, i think of you
Whenever i sit at my table, i think of you
Whenever i come back home and see the lot whereby u will park you car while waiting for me, i think of you
Whenever i pass by my school's carpark, i think of you
Whenever, whenever, whenever...

There is never a time where i will not shed a tear while thinking of you

and that is when i started to find out

its more than liking you...

I miss talking to you
I miss smsing you
I miss listening to your happines
I miss listening to you sorrows
I miss just sitting beside you
I miss just looking at your side view
I miss having u make my tea in the morning
I miss having you buy me breakfast and feeding me
I miss sitting at the beach with you
I miss, I miss, I miss...

But i know that the reality is cruel

but won't i get another chance?

All i want is to jus see you again, and just to spend time with you wherever it is

But the hard cold true fact is

You are no longer mine...

But i just want you to know,
whenever you just sms me to show ur care and concern again.

It hurts.
It really hurts.

because...

I don't want you to be nice to me again...

because...

I cannot take it a second time.

2006-07-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

i feel watching these movies...

1. The Lake house
2. The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift
3. Dragon Tiger Gate
4. Hard Candy
5. The Break Up
6. Pretty Persuasion

i feel like watching but cannot:

1. Basic Instinct 2
2. Imagine Me & You

hmmm my life is coming to a change rite now...

hmm guess who i jus saw? i jus saw fahdil and johnsen...amazing sia johnsen lives in the north west part of singapore then can still so zhun see him at pasir ris downtown east when i go there makan jus now...LOL...and the stupid exam timetable is out... screw the person who plans all the timeslot for everything this sem...u sux at planning...go have some training or course...

aniwae...reacently got to know this guy called shaun...nice guy i mus say...hmm and he err asked me for a movie next week :D haha woo...can my days get any better?

2006-07-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

I dunnoe y but now i am feeling a little down or shd i say terrible...HOWEVER it shouldn't be like this...i mean with all the good vibes for these 2 day like having...

1. i had a date with michael today and it was lovely
2. my 8am class today was cancelled thus school stArted at 11
3. my letter writing test was a breeze today
4. i have driving tmr and i always love driving
5. i am going back to teach singing which i love
6. family din have any quarrels
7. I finally managed to eat KFC
6. Have a new black chair :D

SO Y AM I FEELING TERRIBLE..?

ok so some may say the RED LADY is coming...but ok...it is gonna come...but i dun have pre-mens symptoms...i really dun...

i mean i really am happy really happy coz i managed to catch the movie i wanted to watch and it so happens with someone i would want to watch with...and all the good stuff...i really dunnoe y the wierd shit...maybe like what seige always say...

THE BLOODY HORMONES IN YOUR BODY ARE BLOODY TWISTED!!

maybe thats y......... ?

World Cup 2006

2006-07-10T08:39:00.000+08:00

well done man...coz...

WC' 2006 is ITALY

u bloody french faggot go home lah...

ole ole ole ole...ole ole...ole ole...

Random

2006-06-24T11:19:00.000+08:00

Aiyo...y like that arh...very the confused leh...first it appears to be like that...then like that liao...then no reply no nothing...aiyo...leave me so confused...

very the luan now leh...aiyo...but nvm lah...now very the busy...

haiz...can't wait till i get licence then get car then...i going to go vroooom everywhere...

yuz 4

2006-06-23T16:53:00.000+08:00

the WEIRD quiz.

[ ] You put mayonaise on hot dogs
[ ] You like bread and butter
[ ] You play with your food
[x] You talk to your food
[ ] All you ever think about is food
[ ] You like eating ice cream on a daily basis
[x] You can't live without candy/sweets
[x] You hate vegetables
T O T A L: 3

[ ] You played with dolls
[x] You talk to your dog/cat as if it were a baby
[ ] You are scared of spoons
[x] You have a fear of dying
[ ] You cut yourself
[ ] You wish you were a queen/king/prince/princess
[x] You wish you were married to Orlando Bloom or Angelina Jolie
[x] You love sleeping
T O T A L: 4

[x] You are afraid of bugs
[ ] You have a fear of germs and bacteria
[ ] You are a neat freak
[ ] You eat bugs/bunnies/birds/frogs/snails/dogs/babies
[x] You have a fear that the world will end soon
[ ] You hate sports because you're afraid of getting hurt
[ ] You love doing safe things all the time and never take risks
[ ] You scrub everything you own daily
T O T A L: 2

[ ] You're afraid of driving
[ ] You have destructive relationships
[x] You talk to yourself in front of other people
[x] You talk to yourself in your mind
[x] You believe in ghosts
[ ] You believe in zombies
[x] You believe in the tooth fairy
[x] You still believe in Santa Claus
T O T A L: 5

[ ] You wish you were dead
[ ] You are a vegetarian
[ ] You are a tree hugger
[ ] You believe in the easter bunny
[x] You have weird friends
[x] You wish you were dead when're you very sad/angry.
[x] You were totally 100% honest in this quiz
T O T A L: 3

Results times 4.

im 68% weird!

Wierd it is...

Quiz 3

2006-06-23T16:48:00.000+08:00

Pick the number of the month that you were born in:
1 - i shot a
2 - i gave a lap dance to
3 - i smacked
4 - i sang to
5 - i fell in love with
6 - i murdered
7 - i gave my number to
8 - i humped
9 - i choked on
10 - i bitched out
11 - i had sex with
12 - i ate a

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1 -- a homeless guy
2 -- your mom
3 -- a banana
4 -- a fork
5 -- a mexican
6 -- a gangster
7 -- a condom
8 -- an ipod
9 -- a stuffed animal
10 -- a goat
11 -- my dog
12 -- my dad
13 -- the computer
14 -- my science teacher
15 -- my neighbour
16 -- myself
17 -- a jones soda
18 -- a lama
19 -- a paperclip
20 -- my best friend's boyfriend
21 -- a permanent marker
22 -- a policeman
23 -- a ninja
24 -- a baseball bat
25 -- my pshyciatrist
26 -- my brother
27 -- my sister
28 -- my maid
29 -- a dvd player
30 -- a pickle
31 -- my cell phone

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing:
white --- because i was high
black --- because i was drunk
pink --- because im a homosexual
red --- because the voices told me to
blue --- because i cant control myself
green --- because i hate myself
purple --- because im naked
gray --- because i was wearing bikinis
yellow --- because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars
orange --- because i hate my family
others --- because that's how i rollnone --- because im sexy and i do what i want

PRISCILLA'S :
I fell in love with a condom because i was high

p/s: this is ultra dumb...lolx

If all tests were like this...FUCK ALL TEST :D

2006-06-23T16:36:00.000+08:00

i jus came back from driving centre...when i reach there in ma dad's car in my sunglasses...walk rite up to level 2...asked the lady can go in le mah for my BTT...then outside the seats there everyone was cramming...i went in first took a nap...then start liao...i click click click click...5 mins first to be out!!! and i PASSED...

How nice if all tests in ma life were like this...then i wouldn't need to lose so much brain cells liao... :X

so...i got my PDL too liao...today driving prac was great...learned these few things:-
1. Speeding
2. Chionging
3. Overtaking like millions of times
4. Turn at a sharp point and accelerate at the same time
5. Brake like u r almost going to die

LOLX...anybody wanna tk my car :D

Vrrrooooommmm......here i come.....

:D

2006-06-23T08:18:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...had a nice BBQ with my sec school friends on the 20-06-2006 :D
Also a memorable nite i mus say...I love it :D *shhhhhh*

and yep i changed my blogskin to something else as u can see...

aiyo lazy to blog leh...

i blog another time...ultra troubled with my life now...

quiz 2

2006-06-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head.
1. Seige
2. Jean
3. Weichoo
4. Ivan
5. Shixiong
6. Guanzhong
7. Shaun
8. Michael
9. Alvin
10. Mathew
11. Lee yin
12. Ovidia
13. Peh Wah
14. Boon Wee
15. Alysa
16. Cindy
17. Kai Wen
18. Arsenal
19. Xiao Xian
20. Ah Xue

1. how did u meet14?
(boonwee) in poly same class

2. what would you do if u never meet 1?
(seige) i would die

3.what will you do if 20 and 9 dated?
(alvin, ah xue) Brokeback mountain 2?

4.do you ever like 19?
(Xiao Xian) precious mousey :D

5. would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
(guanzhong, kaiwen) Do they even noe of each other's existance in this world??

6. describe 3.
(weichoo) PIG :X

7. do u think 8 is attractive?
(michael) hmm...yep...shhh....

8. tell me something about 7.
(shaun) crazy in to jap stuff

9. do you know any of 12's family.
(ovidia) shes like wad?!?!?! my sis?!?!?!

10. what is 8's favourite?
(Michael) I dunnoe...ME?!?!?! LOLX

11. what will you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
(arsenal) WTF...what is happening to the world?? lolx

12. what language does 15 speaks?
(alysa) english?

13. who is 9 going out with?
(alvin) his future-to-be-wife...

14. how old is 16 now?
(cindy) hmmm...older than me...can't say her age...shhh

15. when is the last time you talked to 13?
(pehwah) just this afternoon on msn...

16. what is 2 favourite band/singer?
(jean) err...she keeps changing?

17. would you ever date 4?
(ivan) he for godsake has a gf...wan me kanna bash arh

18. would you ever date 7?
(shaun) nope...not a chance...

19. is 15 single?
(alysa) errr she is currently in an ai mei situation

20. what is 10 last name?
(mathew) say eng

21. would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
(lee yin) err she recently jus given birth...

22. what school does 3 goes to?
(weichoo) the ever disgusting ngee ann poly.

23. where does 6 lives?
(guanzhong) far far away...

24. what is your fav thing about 5?
(shixiong) Dunnoe leh...

25. have you seen no.1 naked?
(seige) nope...maybe she've seen me naked...:X
LOL(:

wahah.the end!

Quiz

2006-06-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

Saw this from sis blog so jus tried lo :D

How boyish are you? Each x in [ ] is 2 points. Be it for guys/girls
[ ] you own a jersey
[ ] you like being sweaty
[ ] you love mud
[x] you play at least one sport on a team
[x] you play more than 1 sport for fun
[ ] you hate pink
[x] you live in sweatshirts and jeans
[ ] pranks are fun
[x] dogs are better than cats
[ ] its funny when people get hurt.
[x] you like blue
TOTAL: 5 ( 10pts )

[ ] shopping is torture
[ ] pulling heads off dolls isnt creepy.. its fun
[ ] you dont cry
[ ] sad movies suck
[ ] girl drama is stupid
[ ] painting your nails is weird/stupid
[ ] you own a ps
[ ] you own an xbox
[ ] at some point in time you wanted to be a fireman
[ ] you own a psp
TOTAL : 0 ( 0pts )

[ ] you used to be obsessed with power rangers
[ ] you watch sports center
[x] sports on tv are awesome
[ ] gorey movies are the best!
[ ] you arent scared of any animals or insects
[ ] you take part in "male bonding" )
[ ] you only go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball caps
[ ] you aren't sensitive
[x] no pain no gain
TOTAL : 2 ( 4pts )

[ ] you like going to football games
[ ] night games rock
[ ] spiders and bugs are cool
[x] you like to freak out your sister or brother
[ ] you used to or do collect baseball cards
[ ] saggy pants are cool
[ ] you get sports illustrated
[ ] fire is cool
[x] you don't babysit
[ ] you're immature
TOTAL : 2 ( 4pts )

[ ] its kinda weird to have sleepovers witha bunch of people
[x] green or black or red or blue are your favorite color(s)
[ ] romantic comedies are boring
[ ] you hate dressing up
[ ] you dont care about your hair
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what people think
[ ] you're the one who asks a guy/girl out, not the other way around
[ ] climbing is fun
[x] contact sports like football are fun
TOTAL : 3 ( 6pts )

I'm 24% boyish!

How girly are you? Each x in [ ] is 2 points. Be it for guys/girls.
[x] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[x] during the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[ ] my favorite toy as a child were barbies
[ ] my favorite color is purple
[ ] i did Gymnastics
[ ] i love skirts
[ ] hollister is my favorite place to shop
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[ ] i love chocolate
[ ] i've never had a real job
TOTAL : 2 ( 4pts )

[x] my hair is straightened
[x] i have at least 8 friendster pictures
[x] i usually go shopping once a week
[x] i love to hang out with friends
[x] i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
[ ] i've gone to a tanning salon
[x] ive gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[ ] i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[x] i change my icon weekly
TOTAL : 7 ( 14pts )

[x] i wear a shower cap
[ ] I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[x] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[ ] i wear mascara everyday
[x] i've been or am on a diet
[ ] bathing suits are adorable
[ ] i dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] big sunglasses are hot
[x] i have gotten my nails done
[ ] i own over 10 purses
TOTAL : 5 ( 10pts )

[x] MTV is one of my favorite channels
[ ] all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[ ] i love to have other girls do my hair
[x] i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x] i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
[ ] carnivals are so fun!!
[x] summer is THE best season
[ ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ] im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[ ] pianists are so hot.
TOTAL : 4( 8pts )

[x] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours
[x] i am self-conscious.
[x] i cry often.
[ ] my car smells like vanilla.
[x] my dishes get washed more then once a week.
[ ] i dont do sports.
[ ] i HATE to run.
[x] i squeal when i am surprised or angry.
[ ] i eat dried fruit as a snack.
[x] i love romance novels.
TOTAL : 6 ( 12pts )

[ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute.
[ ] i dance a lot.
[x] i usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house.
[ ] i only have like 5 billion hair products.
[x] i love to get dressed up.
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match.
[x] i talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends.
[x] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself.
[ ] price on clothes hardly matters.
[ ] i apply lip gloss 50 times a day.
TOTAL : 5( 10pts )

[ ] i wish i were a model.
[x] i wish i could meet Paris Hilton to slap her.
[ ] i have been something that was slutty on halloween.
[ ] i own Uggs.
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music.
[ ] i pop my collar.
[ ] i like to be the center of attention.
[ ] guys with Mohawks are hot.
[x] horses are beautiful.
[ ] i'd rather not pay attention in school.
TOTAL : 2( 4pts )

[x] cats are adorable
[x] i write my own music/song/lyric
[x] i would love to visit Hawaii
[x] Valentine's day! i like!
[ ] white is better then black
[ ] i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[ ] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[x] i hate the grunge look of a beard
[x] i love to read gossip magazines
[x] i love to gossip
TOTAL : 7 ( 14pts )

[ ] I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[ ] i love Celine dion
[x] my bubble baths are 2 hr long
[ ] my wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[ ] my friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other
[x] i like kids
[ ] diet drinks are the best
[ ] im all about being vegetarian
[ ] i refuse to eat at McDonald's
[ ] i check my friendster everyday.
TOTAL : 2 ( 4pts )

[x] i LOVE life!
[x] i have a lot of jewlery!
[ ] claires has cheap jewlery
[ ] my screen names have x's in them -
[ ] either one of my friendster profile has/had<3>
[ ] i would never want to be the opposite sex
[x] it's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[x] i have more than 3 pillows on my bed
[x] i have a stuffed toy sleeping beside me. (TOYS. i have more than one(: )
[x] i love tidy and clean places
TOTAL : 6 ( 12pts )

I'm 92% girlish!

Its a stupid quiz :&

2006-05-28T13:46:00.000+08:00

有句话我好想大声地喊出口...

我好爱你哦 dear...*吻*!

Paiseh我在发花痴...嘿嘿...

我的心真的受伤了

2006-05-21T15:11:00.000+08:00

这首歌真的好有意思。。。

灯光也暗了
音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了
人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
我的心真的受伤了

你也会和我有一样的看法吧。。。

Wishes

2006-05-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

What i wanna for my Sweet 18th Birthday...lemme seee...

Presents:-
1. A new wallet most probably from wallet shop coz i know the outside ones...? CANNOT MK IT...
2. A new jacket (white)
3. A new jacket black with white stripes of the arm's length kind
4. A new bag (Sling or hand-bag kind doesn't really matter ba...i need both :) )
5. A new HP
6. Lemme go tink abt it... :X

Wishes
1. A better health :)
2. My family to stay anti-crappy
3. Get good academic grades (I have a goal to work for :D)
4. Him(see him happy etc. too many to name hehex)
5. To have money fall from the sky into my pocket
6. I still gotta go tink abt it... :X

我真的受伤了。。。

2006-04-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

我在公司的最后一天终于到来了。。。

真的好舍不得你们哦。。。

尤其是你。。。

心里有点酸酸的。。。

在那平静的一点点时间里。。。我终于忍不住地掉眼泪了。。。

我现在的心好酸，好痛，仿佛又像那一年前的那一天一样。我满脑子想的都是你。。。想着你和她好吗，你现在又在喝酒吗，你现在在家吗，吃饱了吗，手被我捏得还痛吗。。。全部都是你。。。

但现实是残酷的。首先我不该和你那么要好，其次你不该对我那么好，然后我不该对你有任何的眷念或爱意，接着我更不能对你有什么期盼。。。因为这全部都是一个错误。

可能这全部都是我单方面的吧。。。因为我明明知道这是不可能的，有那么多的不能，那么多的不可以。。。但我还是那么情不自尽地爱上你了。。。

对了，就是爱上你了。。。

你对我的那么那么多的好，真的让我好感动，好感动，好感动。。。因为这是没人所做过的事啊。。。我在你的身边时，觉得好幸福，好有安全感哦，觉得我好像是这世界上最幸福的女人。。。

好想好想好爱好爱你哦。。。

p/s: If cannot read click 'View' then click 'Encoding' then choose unicode :)

Dead...

2006-03-26T17:24:00.000+08:00

I am so tired...so so so tired with my family...my life...my everything...

Let me tell u a joke...guess wad...my parents still so strict with me that i cannot even watch tv...and guess wad...i am 18 years old...a gd joke eh?

I have a family that i cannot comprehand...theres always a part of me that tells me i dun belong in this family...and sumtimes i am proven right...

I dunnoe wad to say...i finally understand what it means that words cannot describe everything...you have to be in someone else's shoes to picture everything out...i cannot describe my family to u...u jus gotta come experience it for urself...

Its not like i dun love my family...i am a person that places heavy emphasis on relational ties...friends families whatsoever...i do love them...but they always piss me off so badly sooooo badly that i always feel like giving up on them...my home is really like a hotel i realise...i jus come back to use the facilities and to sleep. no contract no feelings...no love.

maybe many of u will say that u understand u been through and all...but this is different...its really different. No two families are the same.

Why some may ask am i always at my grans house? Its is because i feel so much better there...better than my own house...its not abt the scolding or whatsoever...its the homely feeling...I feel at home...even if i jus go to sleep for a nite there...i still feel homely...wierd eh?

I have so many problems...but i dunnoe how to share it...some may tink i am still like a siao gina...but actually...the stuff that goes through my head...is even further than some adults...even further than death...can't help thinking...its in me..i jus love to plan...have a system...thou i do stray...but i always bring myself back...somehow or rather...

My heart is so empty...i jus need it to be filled. It was filled...but its gone...and it was even broken...now its mended (no sweat) but its back to square 1...its still unfilled. I wish for it to be filled...but please to not bother if u noe u r gonna break it...dun do this to me again...i really cannot tk it another time...once is enuff...

I really love to go to work...surprisingly i feel at least happy...homes a drag school is also a drag but when i tink that it is sunday today...i am happy coz its mon tmr...haha...wierd i noe...and seige its not due to that reason that is going through ur head...lol

Tired...dissapointed...lost...

Joke

2006-02-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

let me tell u a joke...becoz i am sick of studying CARC...

This starts with my sis calling her friend, and her parents answers...

Sis: Hello can i speak to clarissa please?
Fren's father : She went out
Sis: Is she coming back soon
Fren's father: She went out for piano lessons
Sis: Err..i thought is guitar lessons?
Fren's Father: Oh ya guitar lessons...
Sis: What time will she be back?
Fren's Father: Ok bye ....*tooooot toooot*

Ok it maybe funnie or not...but i am jus tired so a laugh came...lol

Kk back to CARC or else i m dead!!!

nobody to turn to...

2006-02-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

The only reason i m blogging rite now is because i have no one to turn to...ahuh...called wc and no answer, tok to my ex-collegue and i tink he is bz with his gf, seige is aslp, jean is bz, friends are dota-ing...so felt down and decided to blog :)

dunnoe y...heard this song and emotions and memories start to wash back into my already tired mind...haiz...how nice if things were like b4...where everyone had fun and worked hard together...with all those memories, i dun tink i can ever forget what happened and i am so lucky to find all of you...

seriuosly...no matter how hard i study...something will always conk out...and i always didn't expect that outcome...vvv terrible i mus sae to get that rude shock but wtv...i'm getin used to it...

3 more papers to go...can i mk it??

2006-02-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

Blah blah blah...

Exams are like wad, next week? GREAT, jus wad i needed to cheer me up :) lolx...Aniwae, man...this semester's subjects are way killer for me, because they are basically all very practical in a sense not like IISO whereby its mroe for me with the language crap. These subjects now?? Man...memorizing and understanding..not my cup of tea...nor coffee...

The way i see my friends study and claiming they are not studying?? Errr just to say people have eyes and they can see so if u did study, just say so. Seriously, the look of u trying to like downgrade urself to fit is mking me nauseous. U are smart, use it the right way, they way u are acting...gosh...i dunnoe wad to say :) And please, do not, i repeat DO NOT hang on like some pathetic git onto some rotting wood floating in some ocean, man do not criticize me when u r jus as PATHETIC,hey wait, u r more pathetic than anione, being kicked around like some football, man u r desperate arn't u?? You don't like me, complaining this and that, but hey let me tell u, i wanted to be nice and is this what i get?? jus to let u noe, ur preaching on things?? are getting people irritated and just for ur info, people arnd u that u tot u were ur frens and ur loved ones?? they are seriously backstabbing u like nobody's business and trust me. THEY ARE ENJOYING IT :)

Ok thats all, not going to divulge too much becoz blogs?? they ain't really very private lolx...Hmm...This year's v-dae...was one of a hell of an exciting day...lolx..man i love my sis, so sweet the ONLY one to really like give me a present and celebrating it with me when she noes i soooooo nd to bask in the love of v-dae lolx...

Hmmm today had a terrible nitemare as in terrible...in wad sense?? i woke up finding myself crying real badly jus like wad i dreamt, and i fell asleep again, and this time woken my beebee phone call lolx...thanks i really needed that or i would miss the lecture that i heard was real interesting becoz there were people going twice?? gosh...nvm abt that...

and last but not least the last para is always meant for ma banana sis...lol WC!!!! hmmm...thanks for ur concern sure to update to u abt that doc visit lolx..relax the only thing i have is one rotten life here so won't die so easily de... aniting come and eat curry chicken lo... :) u can tapao if u wan lah i won't blame u de...lol...

haiz...i dunnoe...

2006-02-02T20:12:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe...i dunnoe...i dunnoe...

Hmm sumtimes pple tink i noe alot...but actually...i dunnoe the answer and path for myself...i cannot answer my own question...i cannot help myself like i helped others...i cannot console myself like i did for others...i cannot...i cannot...i cannot...

Its been awhile...and i guess...i finally got over it...hard and difficult...but i tink i managed to give up and forget...best for me best for everything...

Now while i am trying to get a new life back...i was pushed against the wall again...dead end...or maybe not...or maybe i am jus denying the facts...trying to hide my feelings...but who cares...as long as others are happy so be it...

Friends...what are friends for...friends are supposed to be there for u no matter what happens...and to wish for the best for your friend in anything they do...and for my case...even for the thing or maybe the one i took a liking for...haha...stupid....duh....but who cares...lolx

I guess there are still alot of questions in my life for me to answer...some of which answers could be gotten from friends and family...some of which i guess is for me to find out myself...soon or in time to come...or mabye never...coz i damn blur =x

so wadever it is...gd things will come right?? hope so...but there no point waiting for it...coz whats meant to be urs will be urs...right??

okok then...so best of luck to everyone for the coming exams...luck luck!!!

p/s: wc i updated already its ur turn...banana!!!!

A brand new year...

2006-01-09T07:56:00.000+08:00

A brand new year...lets hope this new year would bring....more gd stuff for me...like a better health, a better academic year, a better social thingy, a better wadever lah...jus better can liao...a tiny weeny bit also can...i'll be happy :)

hmmm....i noe...haven been exactly hardworking in bloggin this year haha...but aniwae...i m bloggin now so here goes haha...

Chinese new year is coming eh?? gosh so damn fast...can't believe its already a year...loads...and i mean LOADS of things has change...time really flies...but the gd news is...I CAN TK MY DRIVING LICENCE SOON!!! whahaha...i heard that those after june 1988 can only tk that driving licence when turned 21...izzit? gosh...nvm...jean...i i got car or sumting...sure give u lift okok? sian sian...new year...the usual stuff would come abt...where all my elders are gonna question me again...AGAIN!!!

hmm...and this is january rite? oh gosh...my piano theory result is coming out...oh no oh no...bad feeling abt that...if i fail...AGAIN...erm..lets not think abt the consequences shall we?? heh heh...2006...the year i turn 18...hmm..significant...but yah...who cares...

aniwae...dota is fun...hehehe..and least i dun die like mad now...and i got a fers blood yesterday...wooot!!! i noe its tyco...but at least i got it...so happy...jus for that i chiong tower sia...then after fers blood...tio kill by tower...-.- nvm...

OK lah...another time again...jus continue flooding my taggy...i always come see ma blog but u noe the fingers jus lazy to update everytime...so would reply at the taggy...hehe....

Santa...is DEaD!!!

2005-12-16T11:44:00.000+08:00

Haha...yester after my psychology tutorial...we had a game to play at 7pm which was called..."Who Killed Santa???!!!" It was all so funnie lah...

It was actually a game that was like erm...somesort Cluedo...It was actually a christmas party kinda thingy then b4 the showdown of santa...santa was killed...then they showed some relevant people who might be the murderer or even the accomplices...then they would reverse the time by one hour then suppose to find out whos going to kill santa and to keep him safe kinda thing lah...but obviously...none of the groups manage to find out who lah...so then we were called back and they gave some other clues like some disc and all...and now the game shifted...now is to find who is the murderer and why???

So our class was too big a group thus we were seperated into 2 teams lah...then out team were the ELITE team...haha and we had 2 other pple joining our group...our leader was i tink called ritchie or sumting...then we started running about the whole of TP...and i mean WHOLE!!! My gosh...and from the game we learnt sumting...

APPLIED SCIENCE SCHOOL AND IT SCHOOL IS CONNECTED!!! haha

Aniwae...the thingy was...we were told by dear ritchie that it ended at what...9 plus at the most...AND IT ENDED AT 11.30pm!!! My gosh!!! haha...then pehwah keep saeing he Scam us...haha...and indeed...HE DID SCAM US!!!

And thus...heh heh...hes gonna chia us swenson tmr...woot!!! he bloody rich lah...wah lao...out team like have abt 8 person??? gosh...hes gonna be so broke...

Aniwae...back to reality...no santa...no swenson...no christmas...no oversea trip for now...coz...

TERM TEST IS JUS NEXT WEEK....and its jus 75.5 hous away...my gosh...DIE DIE DIE!!!

sian tio liao...sobsob...so many things to study...

and the best part was....my idiot sis threw a bloody toy at me this morning...and it freaked me out of bed...wth...that jus spoil my whole dae lah...so freakin pissed...and guess wad..my mum did nothing...(but i'm not surprised...y shd i...common thingy...jus that she didn't admit it)

goddamit...i tink the thingy that may perk me up alittle are:

1. Gonna order a banana split tmr...*-yummaye-*
2. A nice little coffee may really help (mocha rhumba venti size with whipped cream)
3. If my nanao gets discharged from apple care the hospital like tmr??
4. If my brain suddenly asborbs everything that i m about to read for term test???
5. If school if burned down...and that means no test..

but aniwae...i dun care...haha

coz wadever...this post is stupid...jus to face my laptop and pour my shit out...so that my day won't be so spoilt...haha...this is so like a pensive lah...haha...

CRAP!!!

Pissed

2005-12-12T19:50:00.000+08:00

so f**king piss with HER lah...wth...come back only give me that bloody face like i owe u liddat...not my fault already sae sorry rite? then still give me that freakin face...wad...i scared arh...u wait long have...jus irritating thats all...

wah lao eh...damn irritating lah...so childish...lose only everytime..." my fault lah i noe...u all dun like me...my fault lah" u so like ur fault then ur fault lo!!! bloody hell...

Freakin perfectionist lah...everything only can sae u good...cake u bake the best lo...outside one like sai...mother u the best lo...the rest of the mother no good lo...tuition teacher u the best lo....noe one can compare with u lo...kao...

i tahan u for 17 years le hor...

wth...tapai everytime liddat...mus wait until i bao fa liao then u become ok again...every one two weeks liddat...u not sian i also sian..so old liao still so childish...wth...grow up liao lah...

ridiculous leh...until my sis also cannot tahan...she alwaes side her...yesterdae also gt pissed with her...who can tahan...the freakin temper so friggin disguting...

Pple say her abit only then sae pple wad "yah lah other pple the best lah...ur wife no gd..." wtf!!! who sae u no gd...jus tell u nia rite??? canot tk criticism de leh....like wad liddat...

Looks at urself lah...everyone alos noe u damn bias lah...even ur own sister also can tell lah...then still act act no lah...i evry fair to my 2 kids de....YAH RITE!!! ur head have arh...

sickening in front of daddy only u act like the perfect wife...tok soft soft...pretend pretend...in front of relative of collegues of other pple act until so disgusting...kao...i see also i buay tahan lo...so fake...

comeon lah...be thankful u have us lo...look at the other kids in town lah...even if we r not the best kid...but at least we are way above average can???!!! kao...look arnd u lah...

damn pissed with HER...

2005-12-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

sobsob...so many things that have been buzzing me and all...

1. I m so screwed for the coming term test....if i can mk it...its a miracle
2. I m always so tired...even after jus waking up...then i can topple back to sleep again...
3. I dun understand a shit about FNDB
4. Case Study 1 this thurs is a goner...
5. i can't rmb my jap characters
6. I have bad(but in my opinion the ending is WONDERFUL!!!) dreams becoz after waking up...the reality sux BIG TIME
7. I haven played pool for very vveerryy longggg....and that sux too (can summone go play with me one day)
8. My previous holiday trip departing on the 22nd of dec is SCREWED due to the term test
9. .....

EVERYTHING IS JUS GOING WRONG!!!!!!!!!

goddammit...so pissed...jus can't get aniting rite...wad the hell...sobsob...please let a little miracle happen...and i promise to study hard for the main exam if miracle happens this time...

man...this jus sux lah...very bad mood rite now...

i m so gonna get my red sour plums to eat tmr...and i m gonna get my QQ ball...to maybe perk my day up a little...or maybe not...nonetheless...i m still screwed!!!

How nice the dream was real...man...but thats not gonna happen..and i am having a hard time beliving it...reality is and never was good...it jus spoils the day and still...spoils the day...

Screwed timing

2005-12-03T16:47:00.000+08:00

Pissed...Pissed...Pissed...Pissed...Pissed...and i am still Pissed!!!

Hai...thanks to the stinkin term test on the 19th Dec to the 22nd Dec...i cannot go for my holidays...and the best part is...the CARC is scheduled on the 22nd from 3.30pm to 5pm!!! IT ENDS AT 5PM!!! WTH...otherwise still can mk it...can tk airplane alone to taiwan and meet my family there...coz the freakin airplane leaves at either 5.05pm or 5.15 coz my family is taking the one leaving at 8.30am...so wad is this called...SCREWED TERM TEST!!!

so most probably...i m gonna spend my christmas without...WITHOUT my family...how nice can it get...absolutely wonderful...so great that i wanna burn school down...wad a lousy timing...put at 8.30 still nvm...still got evening airflight...now?

I AM HOME ALONE!!!

Man...this jus spoils my mood all in all...no christmas spirit for now...no holiday...and all alone...how delicious it sounds...

A new beginning...

2005-11-28T03:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm...after a long long long time...i have decided to change the whole look of it...and again...to blog...lol

Now schoold start le lo...then sian sian one...assignments pilling up again...work pilling up...stress pilling up...time getting real tight...hai...wrong combination all in all!!! Getting really broke now too...how bad can it get...

Hmm recently jus injured my leg...tink i kinda cause the legiment at the knee there tear and maybe a dislocated and all...really bad...but now thankfully...recovering...can walk normally liao but still painful here and there lah...doctor say tk about a week to heal....haha...also went for a flu jab...not pain one...but u shd look at my dad's expression...haha...

Life now is...ok lah...jus liddat lo...working towards my final goal...but looks quite rocky thou...dunnoe whether can fulfil anot...but no doubt...i would work towards that...

Harry potter was great...please go and catch the bloody movie...but the best was..?? FRED AND GEORGE WEASLEY!!! haha... they were awesome...bloody funnie...lots of goofy parts and...cho chang wasn't really great and fleur wasn't really that *fairy veela* kind...jus beautiful no doubt but not veela-ish....cedric was there as in...u can imagine him when reading the book and there he was in the movie...victor was bad...looks way too old...but can imagine him liddat lah...lol...

kk lah...wan go makan breakfast liao...another time...bye

its here....

2005-10-30T00:17:00.000+08:00

Oh great....my exam is starting in 5 hours and still counting as i type...

Hmm been a long time ever since i blog...i noe i noe...its because...

1. By the time i am back from work...i am completely shagged!!!
2. Was studying a little by a little for my piano theory exam...
3. Had some erm...wads that called? Heart problems...
4. Had to shop for my collegues wedding dinner
5. Jus had to relax...
6. Had to mk dinner....adn u bet it was delicious! :P
7. OR.....

I jus didn't have the mood to blog wahahahah *evil laughters*

Okk...the 5 hours is getting to me....And i am so gone...if i ever mk it thru this...i promise to try slp early...lol...and it all depends...but if i can..i would....coz its my pasttime :)

School is gonna start REAL soon...and that sux.....y? coz i haven even started on my java holiday work...not because i dun wanna do...i mean come on....if iknew how to do the bloody thing..i would...BUT the twist is....i wasn't a gd java student to begin with...and...i got NO IDEA how to do it...lolx...hope with the help of ma fren...i would be able to rmb every single rubbish and complete b4 i die...

Java....is a SCREWED subject....
(anione second it?)

one more week...means....
1. No more gonna work
2. Ain't no seeing my lovely colleuge everydae
3. My gd fren at work..i m so gonna miss her (LLY) lolx
4. The "DREAM" is gonna end....
5. Am gonna have a new life...and that will also be a screwed life!!
6. School gonna start....
7. FINALLY FOR GOODNESS SAKE...am gonna get my ipod nano...
8. My jay's disc would already been playing for a million time....
9. Life is gonna be so freakin hectic again
10.My whold class is gonna rush the last-minute deadline for projects again....
11. I am gonna be burning lots of midnite oil again...
12. Life is going to sux as normal

woah...ain't i a nagger....

HOLY SHIT!!! exam priscilla....exam...focus...time clock is ticking....

kk gtg...b4 i fail this freaking thing AGAIN!!!

goddammit

2005-10-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

the title looks freaky rite? coz thats how i feel rite now...completely freaky...hmm...actually surfing the net and all..but still i can't find a place to type wad i am really feeling and to let it all out....so i decided to come here...type it all out...andbe done with it....coz it gotta stop...or trouble will brew in no time at all...

as in my nick....it writes..."Its been a long long time ever since i felt that way again....but then again...its wrong" yea....its wrong...it was never rite to begin with....i mean i shouldn't even feel liddat.....coz thats all wrong...practically or theoritically...but as the days go....the feeling jus gets stronger...and the urge jus get worse....even a glimpse or 2 is gd...lol...i tink i am mad and all man...lol...its jus...the timing...the place...the age..the everything...ITS WRONG....or shd i sae...mayeb thats wad they call infactuation.....i dunoe if its spelt correctly...lol....but i hope the feeling would go away...coz even if it doesn't by the time i leave...the feeling would ebb away...i tink...

yea...i am invited to my collegues wedding dinner...and i am the receptionist...lol...gonna eat gd food man...its on the 25th october...which is next tuesday...andi hope i dun screw up someone's wedding dinner...coz that would be real bad...lol....and let me declare...

I am broke....and those who owes me $$ please pay me back...dun wanna name who...but i tink you pple would at least have that few buck...and dun give me that crap...

anad wc...i would pass u the things i owe u the next time i c u....ok? real soon...i hope lol...

and after tinking about the wedding dinner...i realised somthing....my freakin piano exam is jus next sat....wtf...seriously...i am screwed this time round..no escape...holy shit... y did time suddenly pass so freakin fast...man...that sux completely...lol...really...lol...

kk gotta enjoy my bath now...then revision on my music...then slp...i am real tired...and i am seriously looking really forward to tmr...lol....if u get wad i mean...

Happy Birthdae Dear Fren

2005-10-19T14:56:00.000+08:00

hmm gonna mk this a quicky...want to slp soon le..tmr still got work leh...

Yesterdae was Wei Choo's birthdae then we dilly dally then we decided to go billy bombers to makan dinner...it was ex i mus sae...21.50 after sharing wc part also...but its a nice price to pay to relive the times i had wif my gd sec peeps...i love them so much...and nothing can ever replace them...not even my new poly frens...lol...they are one of a kind...

the 5 of us...yah..5 OF US....ate the same thing....Great Balls O' Fire Spaghetti...yea thats wad its called...its a 4-course meal thingy...it has the soup the main course the drink the ice-cream sundae thingy...seriously...if u are damn hungry....thats the thingy u will need...i mean...woot! its ultimately feeling man...its like sum orges meal and all...but we had great time....and seriously....the fun part comes...

I TINK THAT ONE OF THE WAITRESS HAS A CRUSH ON LSX!!!

lol....if u wanna noe more...ask either me, wei choo, jean, seige or lsx himself...full details will be given to u...haha....damn funnie...

then afterwards we went to tk neoprint...nice nice nice nice....me love it...the nice times are back....can see them now coz gt photos...got tk with everyone there b4 lah...except lsx...lol...haha...wan see... can ask us lo..we got the photos...lol

kk lah...going to slp le...damn slpy liao...bb

Class Gathering...

2005-10-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

We had a class gathering on sunday which was yesterdae, kk lets name whos there...
1. Me
2. Seige
3. Jean
4. Weichoo
5. Guan Zhong
6. Shi Xiong
7. Morris
8. Faith
9. Gek Teng
10. Eunice
11. Liting
12. Shaun

Hmmm....thanks to me...the plans were change form Seoul Garden to nothing....lol...so they change the timing to 2pm...and so we meet...

And we went to Swensons instead...and i ate banana split...yummy...have been wanting to wat that for a long long time...lolx...then we went to Tmall MJ to get shaun's and faith's S.H.E disc....then wen jus keep walking to find somthing to do...lolx....

Then we all went to plae pool at pavilion K-Pool...we opened 2 tables and played for some time....then we went off coz Lt and some saed that they wanted to find jobs...off we went to tmall again to find jobs...and thats about all...

2005-09-29T15:02:00.000+08:00

Hmm....i just came back form the airport....sad it was....and afraid i am....but let me sae wad happened fers...

My uncle, who is my fathers younger brother, my cousin's father, and my godmother's younger brother....has just departed for narita airport in tokyo for a business trip for years....and will onli be back for a break next may or sumting liddat...

And i mus sae...i haven been close to this uncle of mine...didn't speak to him much and stuff so yah....lets continue...

so we went to send him off everyone except my grandma who is his mother coz she went on a cruise trip and my family....shan't explain much...on y and stuff....

then when my uncle went to hug my godmother, she jus broke down in his embrace....and cried real bad...and i didn't see my godma cried that bad b4 other then the death of my grandfather....who is her father....then everyone one walked to the departure gates....

and guess wad

i cried too....oh yah...the wife who is my auntie was alreadi crying real bad....but the kids weren't...then...suddenly when my uncle was walking towards the gate...my cousin joey who was the elder among my two cousins....sec 1...she jus burst into tears...and i literally emphasize BURST....she jus really cried real badly and really cried till i also cried....real pathetic man...but yah...

aniwae....the things that got me wondering was....

1.wad if it was my dad going instead....
(i would freak out really freak out coz i really love my dad alot...alot...alot...so i would start
working and go join him there)

2. IF i didn't make it to the local uni....it means i would have to go overseas....
(And that means....it won't be long in another abt 4 yrs or less? that sux too)

wadever its is...i nv use to feel sad and wanna cry at the airport...maybe i am used to it...numb already to pple coming and leaving my life....so...quite surprised i cried this time...but wadever...i am jus sick of pple leaving my life...

hmm gonna slp soon...gotta work tmr yet..and btw...srry to u for not being able to find u a job....coz really cannot find...srry dude...if u r reading this...lol....

irked!!!

2005-09-25T09:06:00.000+08:00

hmm....got back ma exam results....not that fantastic and all...but i am quite happie lah...coz firstly...i can go into the next semester...and next...i didn't fail a single thing!!!

Results as follow:-
NMM-C
DCNK-C
IISO-A
CMATHS-B+
PRSP-B
APEL-P

i noe...not that good...but rmb? i am quite awrite with it...thou mus study harder next time...
kk....now working and stuff and some collegues commented some stuff...lol..definately....pple change...due to mani cicumstances....

kk gtg....parents fighting...damn sian..alwaes...and ma stupid sis....jus sitting there enjoying a show...dots

work...

2005-09-19T09:10:00.000+08:00

hmm....gonna start work tmr again...i mean yah work...and u may ask the reason why eh?? lemme see....

1. i nd some dough to survive?
2. Use the time to keep myself 'entertained'
3. prevent myself from over-decaying

and some other reasons lazy type liao....lol

time past...its already september...soon to be october....and october is a significant month to me i mus sae...october....sweet october...sweet sweet october...

aniwae....here i have to do it...srry dude for the belated wishing

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIM SHIXIONG.....lol....

forgot abt that yesterdae...days past too fast liao...didn't now it arrived so soon....

so....Banana Split Banana Split Banana Split....hehe....rmb hor...BANANA SPLIT....

2005-09-14T08:21:00.000+08:00

Hmmm....realised the skin is changed again...coz i bo liao....bored so change lo....not bad rite?? except the alignment of the whole thing....tink it is not made to 1024 by 768 thats y liddat....

aniwae...i am having holidays now....gettin real bored here man....lol....nothing to do....vcds, vcds, vcds and vcds.....or ya and msn, online pool, gunz, and nothing else....lol...sound very interesting rite?? i knew it...lol....suffering same symptoms like seige...haha....bored tio liao....

tmr will go gran hse to rot...then thurs got class bbq....my new class de...at east coast park arh....last time nv go...not feeling well and stuff...then this time shd be going lah...otherwise my xiao mei sure kill me le...lol....hai.....

i am jus 17....sounds old, yet not that old....it means 2 things.....i have spent 17 yrs of ma life alreadi.....then the next would be i would still have at least 40 yrs to leave....long long time to go....

siao liao...i wan go plae gunz liao....train train then go scare ivan...heh heh....level 9 le wor...althou still ge lan lah....but nvm....TRAIN!!! he 22 level leh...kao....tk long long long long long time to reach that level i tell u....kk gtg le...

ciao

2005-09-11T08:12:00.000+08:00

*phew*.....i am finally done with all the work......

Hmm....didn't update for very long le....coz gt exams....assignments....lots of stuff....lol..but i am finally FREE!!! i am so happie....once again to celebrate...i stayed overnite in ma grans hse again......i chiong vcds yesterdae till 3 plus then slp till 11 plus todae sia...lol....

Yet...thou i may be free rite now.....there are still things i have to worry...coz my piano theory coming soon october 26th i tink....stress again.....but now i shall give my self a proper break....(and so shall tgoc go plae with his hamster or dota ba....lol....) still i am sian...

I have requested to go back to work at my ex-workplace....there are lots of memories there...i have seen office politics, see the many stuff that kids normally dun get to see....its actually a rough place outside...but the main thing is....the memories i have....

The last time i went back was to help pass time and to relive the memories....i had to find a place for me to work to forget everything...i will never forget the memories that i had.....the travelling...the going out after work....the accompaniment or aniting....lol

Hai....gtg nw...go watch tv with ma gran liao....kk another time ba....

2005-09-03T01:47:00.000+08:00

Listening to: When I Dream by Carol Kidd

As i listen to this song, it just brings back lots of memories that can only be imagined and replayed in the head as it doesn't exist anymore. Maybe you would understand what i mean or maybe you wouldn't, its alright as nothing matters anymore.

Its been about 5 months since i am alone again. It could be a blessing and yet, be a regret in my life. Days past, weeks past and months past. It doesn't matter anymore, does it?

I got along in life, in fact getting what I hope to get, and it seems that nothing could have been better. I did well in examinations, got along with new friends, past life the way it should be etc. I should be elated. But then I realise somthing - though I have gotten on with life, but I guess the only thing that I have also gained would be loneliness.

Nights when i would cry, times when i when i would break down, be afraid of the quietness without you, afraid of the loneliness that you have given me. But what could I do?

Nothing, but to just carry on walking on with life, alone in this whole world.

I could put makeup on, put on happy faces, be happy in front of others. But deep inside, I am lonely, afraid, tired. I am nothing of what i have displayed. I am not happy and neither would i be blessed.

I could build a mansion
That is higher than a tree
I could have all the gifts i want
And never ask please
I could fly to Paris
Accept my beck and call
Why do i live my life alone
With nothing at all

*But when i dream.........
I dream of you........
Maybe someday you will come true
When i dream........
I dream of you......
Maybe someday you will come true*

I could be the singer
Or the clouds in anywhere
I can call up someone
To take me to the moon

I can put my make up on
And drive men insane
I can go to bed and all
And never know his name

Chorus*

This post is me trying to paint a picture of a woman being lonely and all, thinking about the times of her with her ex-love, and that she has lost that love and that it could never come back. The lyrics may be wrong, i just hear the song and type the freakin song out.

2005-08-31T01:08:00.001+08:00

Haiz....sad sad...i jus posted some shit the other dae...but guess wad...it was erased before i could post it....the internet went bonkers....so heck...lazy to retype all the shit again....so jus continue lo....

Hmmm now is the one week study week thingy and it is already tuesday...that sux rite...? time past so fast....but heck when todae is tuesday it means....tmr is wed which oso means i can see all my gd old frens from ngee ann....coz we r gonna go back to nass to visit some teachers and to gather......i so love it....thou it would be better if people i hope to see would return....but i doubt so....lol....but nvm.....then it oso means....on thursday.....my mum is gonna chia me and ma sis at jacks place...lol....

not in a very gd mood now and y's that?

1. Lots of things to pack
2. i can't find the freakin hole-puncher
3. i miss u
4. exam is nxt week
5. i am not prepared
6. i wanna slp but i can't

thats bad enuff isn't it?? lol....kk gotta go pack up ma stuff....all in a mess...lol...k

long time

2005-08-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time every since i have blogged....i noe...yes i noe....lol...so here goes....

hmm...these few daes are EXTREMELY busy...projects+assignment+tutorial+lectures.....nv ending one...i am SOOOOO tired.....so so so tired....stressed with the projects and assignments....got NMM website and proposal and image documentation, got Java programming, and i have IISO PRESENTATION todae.....which means......FORMAL WEAR...dots....

now i am in school suffering a fate worse than death....y?....i gotta cross ma legs and stuff...dammit....so miserable....presentation at 1....and u may ask y i am here so early?? dun ask me...i dunnoe....lol

kk nd go pia project again....update the details again....maybe upload a photo soon...lol....bye....

2005-08-20T03:37:00.000+08:00

If u have seen the superstar on channel u tonite...u would noe wad i am saeing abt then...

IT IS ALL WRONG.....WRONG....WRONG.....

Jun yang shd be the superstar....y?? its not because kelvin is blind or wadsoever....its just...i mean come on...swear it and tell...jun yang is a better singer...y do i sae so...let me use the experience in the choir to explain...

Jun Yang has a more rounder voice....his voice is of a large volume that is to sae...it a wide and rounded....he doesn't use the sound from the nose area like kelvin...Kelvin uses a hell loads of nazal sound....its too sharp...and he doesn't pronounce his word very clearly...and the best part of all is.....ITS ALL PITY VOTES...

Fersly...Votes from charity organizations....then from the handicapped people...including people who are blind, people who du have four limbs, people who are paralysed and stuff....and also from people who have a family and has a handicapped person in there..they would strongly vote for Kelvin so as to show that even if one is handicapped....u can mk it....and that also includes outsiders to vote for him as they are touch.....that he can sing...

I really feel SO sad for jun yang...he deserves to be Superstar...u may tink that i am bias...but lemme tell u...i used to support Kelvin...but y did i change.....becoz its so unfir to Jun Yang...he deserves it as he is really a gd singer...I mean if...ok lets sae...Kelvin is not partially blind or wadsoever...will he come this far and stuff...would handicapped association still support him that much....i doubt so....i mean seriously ask urselves....would u still votes IF HE IS NOT PARTIALLY BLIND!!!

This is really stupid....but aniwae...me and ma frean Mr LSX alreadi sae le...nxt yr if got superstar again...we both go join....then we will win the freakin thing....wahah....

STUPID RESULTS...BRAINLESS ....

JUN YANG....all the best to you....JIA YOU!!!

Sick....

2005-08-19T04:06:00.000+08:00

hmmm jus went to polyclinic to see doctor....sobsob sick sick...then now in lecture theatre...and guess wad....everyone sitting away from me...pei wah, joel, jerry, chong neng.....they trying to be funnie lo...sae i got wad SARS....madness..i dun have lor...sobsob....now my north south east west all no pple de....

hmm....very lethargic sia....whole body muscle aching....sobsob....summore got so mani projects then like veyr stress....

ARH....mus copy stuff le...later then

2005-08-18T13:23:00.000+08:00

hmm...pple..Mr Nathan is gonna be out president for another 6 yrs...and the best part was...he speak CHINESE...i mean....woah...cool...thou it ain't very accurate and precise...but its gd enuff for me...3 cheers for u Mr nathan..althou quite sad we have no one dae holidae but its ok lah...seriously i prefered him to any of the other contestant....y?? coz they like no seh then like they are after the post and the luxuries than really wanting to serve the people....so thumbs up for Mr Nathan...

hmm...feeling very miserable everydae....u may look at me and tink i am awrites....but i am very uncomfortable inside...i am feeling veyr sick....i can't breath properly and i am having on and off fevers...and stuff....jus miserable...sobsob

hmm...so now still rushing the projects.....feeling very stress rite now...can't wait for nxt saturday to come...it would mean...freedom...

OOPS....i have piano exam nxt friday....screw it....darn....with all the projects where do i find the time to practice...goner lah...sian 1/2 liao....

kk lah..i go coninue project le...

aniwae...HAPPIE BIRTHDAE JEAN!!

2005-08-17T03:05:00.000+08:00

hmm...wahaha i got a new cap hehe...my aunt buy buy one....hmmm....

kk...i am officially pissed with another faggot...and this time it is a FAGGOT...haha....wanna noe ask me....he is freakin irritating.....wads with girls man....shut the f**k up....u r pissing lots of pple now....with ur big mouth that shoot nonsense everywhere u go...

hmm.....i very bored now...waiting for lecture to start....so damn bored....i am still sick btw...haha...feeing miserable now block nose is very the very the bad....kk xing wan use laptop see manga le....gtg...bb

2005-08-16T09:25:00.000+08:00

life is s o stress man...i jus realised lots of stuff....
1. i hav e to hand in my NMM project next week
2.i have to hand in my java project next week
3. i have a dcnk test this wed
4. i have a iiso model to make
5. i have to present my iiso project very soon
6. i have loads of tutorial to do
7. work keeps coming in
8. i am gonna die soon

But the gd news i have todae is.....i scored FULL MARKS for ma maths test....i am so happie....so happie....SO HAPPIE....gawd....this feels gd....

Hmm...prisicilla u soooo gotta buck up in ur work...i swear i am gotta buck up...aniwae gt a promise to fulfil...haha suppose to master ma subjects then teach...haha then we can all ace this stupid exam coming soon...die die die.....BUCK UP....

i dunnoe...i am very tired actually....mentally...u may look at me everydae and see that like i have no worries...but i am really very tired inside....coz of mani factors i guess....like work...future....memories and stuff...won't go into further details lah....

hmmm.....realised i jus changed my blog skin....too bored....haha....

kk lah...i dun lame lame le.....

in advance.....happie birthdae JEAN!!

2005-08-08T01:16:00.000+08:00

mmm...guess i am updating again...lol....jus finish ma breakfast....got jerked out of bed....hmph!! i was sleeping....hugging lala and all....feeling all cozy and nice....and then...."Ah-Le....Wake Up...Breakfast...." -.-"breakfast - Thanks alot....

Oh ya....our great Mr Chew a.k.a tgoc psychoed me into downloading this game...called Gunz i tink....it was FREAKIN slow....till i fell asleep on ma bed....and once again jerked awake when i realised i didn't off the lights and shut the computer....-.-" then thankfully...it was d/l succesfully when i woke up...then suddenly felt damn awake sia....sian 1/2....then instead i played with dear Mr Chew the Gunz thingy lo....he wad sia..no mercy one....teach me the buttons for wad....5 minutes?? and he became trashing me.....an i mean...TRASHING!! backstab me, attack me from the back, used cheating techniques all kind of shitty methods....link it to tgoc....lolx....

sian...jus tinking abt this is the end of week 11....means i am gone....got a formal presentation in wk 13....damn gotta wear formal...i dunnoe wad to wear....dunnoe wad u really mean by formal sia....so mani meanings....nv....then wk 14 NMM project due....darn.....i am so screwed lah...no idea at all....dunnoe how to do....no inspiration for the goddammit website.....so pissed....if i have an idea then its not so bad i guess......at least can rope people to help me....but nvm..i am gone....

bored.....real bored....very bored....ultra bored....damn bored....just bored.....lol....

Fun!!

2005-08-05T22:55:00.000+08:00

sian...chao sian....aiyo...title write fun leh...lol...kk lah.....quite ok and stuff lah....but jus the underlying feeling of all in ma class i tnk is SIAN....its lke projects are like amazing....they come one after another....b4 i could finish another comes along...WHAT'S THIS???

Hmmm....i have a new daddy...and....hehe....not sae here....haha....happie family....but yet....i can sense danger brewing....and its coming....i jus knew it....bu yet...i can do nothing to stop it..coz its an evil someone doing sumthing......yea...something...

okay lah....did i sae that i was happie with ma results.....did okay......not that FANTASTIC....but i love it so much....this proove i am not that stupid as everyone think i was.....wahahaha.....I AM CLEVER.....kk srry...going crazy!!

kk i am quite happie being in guitar club....seems like choir in a sense there are 3 parts....guitar 1 guitar 2 guitar 3.....and i am in GUITAR 1....wahaha.....a sin like soprano.....hehe.....used to be in alto...in ma secondary sch choir.....

hmmm missed life back then...oh ya...i tink i would b going back to sch on teacher's dae....to see teachers and frens and teachers....and my poor descendant alto SL....Ms Karmen....poor thing.....heard she having hard to to cope with life.....now u pple noe wad i went true.....its miserable.....haha...the presssure comes form bothe side....but its fun rite....? u get the satisfaction when pple did well in performance or practice....and ALTO rawks.....best bunch of people.....

k lah...now in sch...dunnoe do wad also, come so early.....mad sia...but okay.....sian....I AM GOING BROKE....i nd dough man......dough is very important....haha....'

kk thats abt all i guess....bye bye

2005-07-27T11:09:00.000+08:00

hmm...long time i no post post le hor?? paiseh lah....i tink its either 1. i got cursed by someone real sweet to be real sleepy these few days OR 2. its the sleepy bug....hehe...sounds stupid...i noe...its excuses....haha....but seriously....i love my bed....i mean LOVE....its so freakin cozy plus lala waiting for me and stuff...die i wanna sleep again liao.... :P

Read seige blog, gee....y feel bad...if its the IT students....95% would be gone in 5 mins....our pple here damn united de....u c 1 go..then one row will go...then another row will go.....and everyone would go....gee no nd kao bei pple until liddat rite...pple tok nia.....no big deal....whoever the freakin lecturer is....wait till u come IT school...we pple here mk sure u experience HELL....hehe.....maybe our pple would even send u a nice little finger for remembrance....

arh....i gotta hand in the freakin NMM project beta on fridae.....and i am having a phobia for macromedia dreamweaver and fireworks...its driving me crazy.....me and ma classmate alreadi plan le...we pong thurs practice....for AG(absolute guitar) i mean we r short of time and i really nd all the time i nd....so....project fers...guitar later....

oh yea...anouncement of results...i am damn pleased with myself....even if its nothing compared to other kids in school...but i am pleased..and it will motivate me to work harder...(hehe now i noe whos the pple to compare with....u pple are my motivator....here i come....weee.....) my maths i got 37.5 upon 50 then PRSP i got 34 upon 50 then NMM 29.5 upon 50.....i noe it doesn't sound very gd...but as i have said....i am pleased and thats all i care....hehe...

hmmm feeling damn stressed and tired these few daes......lots of tension being real high and lots of power bolts are flying thru the air...i did my best to help but it all depends on u pple....so yea....rmb tok it out....dun hide...hmm...real tired....mentally.....real tired....

tired.....

2005-07-21T15:50:00.000+08:00

hehe me do blog again....y....coz boliao...and partly dun wan forget how to do html shit lah....coz i will forget de....i very jia lat de no practice i will forget like water tap flowing speed de

hai...feeling better abit....but sitll very tired...mentally and stuff...haha once again wc came ma hse todae...then we tok read comic and makan maggi mee....then we sit on bed and jus slack lah....then sumthing happen wc gt a shock lah....not going to sae wad...aniting ask me or wc lo...hehebut seige dun worry u will get to noe de....hehe...jus sian...lots of work to do....but i relali miss ma secondary school frens every single one of them....its jus yah...i dunnoe ...
todae got 2 hr break i rush down do inter meet wc mah...haha manageed to psycho her go plae pool with me...then we plae plae then suddenly saw her fren...haha...gt one guy quite awrites lah...looks not bad....then yah lah..my form has improved...managed to the stupid balls in again liao...haha..that time sia lah...like nv plae b4 liddat...lan until cnanot lan liao....even worse than wc lor....whaha....kk lah...wan go slp soon le....later sumting bad happen again....

sick....wheez

2005-07-20T14:50:00.000+08:00

hai...feeling damn sick now...feeling very horrible...worse ever since dunnoe how long...feel weak also sia...y..?? ALICE......u r the freakin culprit...basket sia....slept onli 1.5 hr in 48hr...mad rite...summore i is those kind like to slp one dae slp 15 hr kind the best one lah...imagine.....

sian sia...dunnoe wad to blog also la..jus feeling damn stress all of a sudden again....with all the projects....the test...the subjects...everything and everything....gawd....i nd a breather...ironically......its onli the 2nd dae of sch....

friends wise....okay liao...but i dunnoe y...i feel that i still can't fit into my poly class...not that they are unfriendly....they are even quite nice to me....realli touched by sum pple like yk, yt,these few....dun mind waiting for me jus to help me print...so touched sia...gawd....but its jus....i dunnoe....i feel that i nd to tread very carefully on these waters...i tink thats y partly i am mentally tired....jus that.....i can't be realli who i am...which brings me to tink of seige and all of them again....

hmmm learnt abt the calss bbq on 23 which is this sat...dunnoe the details...but looking vvv forward to it....hmm...piano exams coming up....26 august....die liao lor....gonna man....sound far lah...but its onli abt 5 wks approximately lor...thats onli 5 piano lessons....thats fast....as in FAST.....gone man...

aniwae.....abt the CDS thingy...i chose....
1. french
2.pychology
3.health disease
4.entreprenureship (speellings wrong but heck)
5.management....

guess wad...onli the top 2 interest me..the rest is not i wanted...i actually wanted introduction to law of singapore....the fundamentals of HTM...then IT students dun have....freak sia...sucks lah..everything cannot.....like shit sia....aniwae this thurs gt orientation for guitar club...@ 6.30....late hor...but okay lah...hope they dun do stupid stuff in orientation becoz i HATE that...ia actually alreadi hate orientation but seige encourage me to go....sae its better...for cca...so guys....dun do ani stupid stuff.....or i may blow my cover...

nothing much liao lah....jus liddat lor....maybe another dae again then....

Trains of tots running thru ma brain

2005-07-15T15:09:00.000+08:00

hai....dunnoe leh...these few daes....not onli feel damn....DAMN slack.....also quite moody sumtimes....(its not the monthly prob lah....) maybe its becoz of the ending holidaes soon....where i will see lesser of ma vvv gd frens and hang out with them kk....lets backflash....

Wednesday, 13 July2005

hmmm todae met lsx ivan gz and wc we go watch movie-initial d....dun ask me y i watch again....coz...jus wanna watch again...and ya....jus to rot....so typically wc reached fers then me then lsx then ivan and finally....(drums roll...) gz.....haha...he has such straight hair......gee....hehe.....we keep making fun of it lah....then i found out the damned truth ....onli me and lsx watch initial d b4.....i tot ivan and gz gt watch b4 also lor....nvm....i was like narating the stupid show to wc lah....hai....then typically....if u r going out with lsx and ivan and gz....u noe wad to expect....POOL....wahaha......we went to plae pool....3 hrs + i tink....seriously...there is sumting wrong with me.....i realli SUX at pool now...dun ask me y...it has been liddat ever since mondae...its jus sick....can't get aniting rite.....haha.....then the 3 go makan ice cream i drag wc go buy my breakfast then we go library go renew ma books.....then we proceeded to seige hse.....then we took 8 and alighted.....we walk walk walk walk....then we like mad sia....we laugh and tok secret stuff lah...not very secretive lah....jus not meant for pple to hear lah.....then we walk until about the blk downstairs le.....then wc turn arnd...jus ncie guess who we saw......IVAN AND LSX.....scary sia..we haf been stalked.....aarhhh...then we knew it was ivan's idea.....he bored....haha....then went to seige hse lor....then we watch simpsons....then ivan sae bored once again...and so comes mahjiong....wahah...then wc see lor...coz she dun noe how to plae...haha....so thats about all.....

now comes the hard truth....i have to select the stupid CDS tmr...jus had a tok we ma dad...gee..i realli love him man...he alwaes manage to tok sense into me....thou its hard..but somehow...i coudn't agree wiht him more...i relali love my dad.....hes alwaes the best....i mean...he one of the most treasured peron in ma life...althou i get so pissed with him sumtimes...but both of us...have the other deep in our hearts....haha....that ain't the same with ma mum...not realli close with her...shes jus ma...mum....yea jua ma mum...haha...eh...i side-track le....haha....yah...then we decided le...not gonna post yet....coz no leakage of info...wahaha.....maybe another dae...come ask me...i may tell u....haha....but not here....hehe...

death is creeping real close to me man...still have PRSP in ma throat.....gawd~still to mention DCNK, NMM, IISO...gee....sumone get me a mocha rhumba....or mocha frap.....ARH>.<.......anione...feel free to give me some god-dammit inspiration for alice.....its getting on ma nerves.....

a fun dae...

2005-07-12T03:25:00.000+08:00

haha..this blog is for the day out with ma frens on saturdae one...it was totally awesome....i have nv felt so happie for a vvvv long time le...haha...

So here goes....

We met at tampines interchange....then thanks to the two guy....Mr Chew J.E and Mr Tan G.Z ...we waited till we decided to go play pool @ pavilion to wait for those dumbos....then while playing le...they arrived....then we play a few more matches then we took a train to outram park to meet shaun then we took a train to harbourfront to meet lsx...then we bought some bottled drinks and off we go....haha.....we actually wanted to tk the shuttle bus or sumthing but upon looking @ the queue.....it was th TAXi......wahaha....then we went in...me seige jean and shaun in one and lsx ivan guan zhong and wc in another one...we arrived le then we went to find a nice little shady spot....(some of us didn't intend to sun tan) so.....then jean saw her frens....(do i sound surprised....) one guy named shaun she introduced to us....haha.....he keep staring @ me sia.....scary...those kind like i noe u face but dunnoe where the heck i have seen u face....he seems familiar.....maybe i have seen him on the streets...then from dear jean....i found out....he was askingif i was from junyuan pri sch.....then jean was like ya....so now i noe....whaha.....

Then the guys start acting macho....and start to remove their tops and apply sun tanning oil over...haha....thne me seige and wc go change into sumthing in case.....IN CASE we gt wet....then when come back the time....wc kanna pulled down....then seige....then dear jean saw me...and i was like....oh no.......chao bo.....run for ur lives...but rmb no one gets away when jean gets high....so i was pushed to my death.....and the best part was.....i am not wearing a bikini kinda bra...so.....imagine....its death men...but i gotta admit...it was freakinly fun...except the attire was wrong....but it was all fun...then they went canoeing and stuff....and seige was having hell of a time of taking photos of hunks......to her hunks means...ANG MOHS...so i kinda helped a little bit....haha...ask me if u wanna noe...haha....then after everything and stuff we went back lor....took lots of pictures....then we went back to tamp to eat...we ate at breeks! then went to starbucks to drink mocha frap. cool man...

the whole dae cannot be jus described in words lah....its awesome....really cool and stuff...seeing ur old frens...the feelings jus....GREAT.....it felt even better then noeing u strike a starters 4-D i guess....haha....

realli hope to do everything again....gee got lots of projects to do...sian sia...and its getting on my nerves...pple tinking that i am pitiful...fucked up sia...jus becoz someone refuse to tell me then another got to feel i am pitiful....actually i dun realli care...i am who i am....tk me for wad i am...its not like u are that guai u noe.....dun act convent....u sux at it....its not like ur attitude realli rawks....i mean look @ urself....a person that backstab ur fren is worse then having attitude problems.....so....b4 analysing me....look @ urself....fix urself up.....i mean if u r really dat gd....and the courtesy to not do the gang up shit....then maybe its not so bad....but yah....maybe u r jus so weak and slow that u gotta freak out at everything...sobuzz off....dun preach to me.....when u r as rotten to the core urself....

wadever...not gonna let this spoil my mood.....gotta go get some pirated cd-roms.....nd it for my projects.....die...still gotta get my matric card back...damn....gtg.....ciao everyone....

long time...

2005-07-08T15:00:00.000+08:00

hmm...its been a long time every since i have blogged...srry about that....as u noe...term test...was studying like mad fer it...plus the NMM proposal project....(special thanks to seige and lsx for helping) i have been passing my life in the whirl of a tornado...haha....

life's as usual...had some clash with ma new mates thou...i dunnnoe...until now i can't really adapt to poly life...as in....work and stuff....i'm in....but ish da social prob men....can't get along with pple from poly...its like...we r so different...not gonna sae aniting bad but yah...b4 saeing others...look at urselves men...i mean....yah...somethings are actually not really a big prob...but i dun understand y mus this be freakinly blown up....its bullshit man...i am who i am...accept it....its a way of life....

now having holidaes....till nxt sun...some may sae siok lah...but its freakin boring...in a sense....vvv aimless...its like u been craming ur work for the past few daes and then one dae u wake up...with nothin to do at all...scary man....haha....but its gd...its a breather...to carry on...

hmm...i guess....frens are freakinly hard to find nowadays...i seriously treasure the shit i have with seige...as in....its sumthing special i will nv find again in ma life...not with anione else too...its special...i can't explain it...but...its like.....everytime u feel down and out.....she will like be there for u....giving u the freakin strength to go on....its remarkable man....

hmm....btw i am in guitar club le....dunnoe how its gonna be...but...its gonna be ma best...

soo happie can't wait for saturdae...going out with all ma gd frens and ma best fren...so happie....so sad i couldn't go for ma class gathering todae...coz busy and not feeling well...srry abt that...but i am gonna keep my self steady pom pee pee for saturdae....can't wait man.....its gonna be a hell of a time...hope no one pang seh the plan....coz its reallly gonna...blow me off my cool man....haha...

met seige up we went for lunch together....we met at interchange then we went tmall...she used the loo while i went to breadtalk to buy ma family's breakfast for tmr....then we decided to head down to TMART....wahaha......we took a but and went to eat @ mac there...after we r done...we went a little shopping....i bought 2 3/4 pants and a t-shirt.....seige got a t-shirt...wahaha.....then we walk and walk....went to tk 293 from seige hse there....then guess who i saw....charlene and olivia....gee....aniwae....i look as thou i am not in any sch lah....damn sloppish...haha...they mus be tinking....priscilla now not schooling arh...let me tell u pple men..."TEMASEK'S ME....TEMASEK'S U....WE ARE THE BEST....." wahaha....i am in temasek poly INT school MWC course...wahah....i noe ....i am going crazy...jus waiting for sumthing to trigger it.....wahahha.....ouch...ear hurts....sobsob.....hey gotta go....its 12...gee....

2005-06-22T10:05:00.000+08:00

hi hi pple...erm...i noe my blog looks wierd now....but bo bian....under renovation by my sis....then....ya lor...half way liddat...hehe....but at least i updating now rite?....

Hmm todae.....was absolutely cool....coz y.....two fights in a dae...song! fersly todae went mensa makan.....then at the second level the vegetarian store the aunties fight sia...no erm...is quarell....until vvvv jia lat....then at the end from 3 auntie in a shop till 1 pathetic auntie in a shop...then no one dare go buy sia...scared kanna chop....or veggies going to fly right smack into ur face....thats not the most power one...

then at abt 12+ liddat lah....waiting outside lecture 11 for that Mr Victor Foo lah....(he late)....everybody was like in a freakin wet market lah....vvvv noisy......then suddenly.....here goes...." bu yao yi wei ni shi singapore liu mang wo jiu pa ni men....." chio sia....then typically one singaporean ah beng (pukes) comes out from the sea of head and goes " come lah...fight lah....come lah...go settle lah...." then everybody diam sia.....vvv effective in noise controlling...thne i went erm...abit loud..."SONG!!" i mean it was funnie lah...then the two machiam wanna fight le then the guys from his class (C121) pull him back lah...i tink it was darren lah...then the girls from C121 kao bei kao bu the singaporean ah beng lah...then the door open....everyone went in...tot okay le...but i have gotta sae this man.....listen up....
"i support u men the china guy from C121" ....i mean i would stand on the china guys side lah....i very buay song the JIAO BIN (singapore ah beng) also...althou i dun really noe wads going on....but fersly see the JIAO BIN..i already buay song....then summore...y go kechiao pple...pple also nv do aniting..but i noe pple sure sae wad it tks two hand to clap...but i doubt so....that JIAO BIN...is really !@#$%^&*&^%$#@! sia....his kuttu hair style...like parrot liddat.....tink so nice....then the thing didn't ended...like i said....

after the CMaths2 Lecture...that JIAO BIN'S @#$%^&*Fren walk on the aile....okay the scenario i this....the C121 pple sit one line in the middle section....the JIAO BIN and FRENS....sit at the bottom row on the left side....then after lecture...they walk up....and guess wad that JIAO BIN'S fren said....."wo zhen shi pei fu ni men zhong guo ren..you wu qian duo nian lishi....crap" ...then that china guy freakin buay song liao....he stand up but ivan hold him back (wise move or the poor china guy gonna get expelled for that JIAO BIN...boh hua) then guess wad i did...hehe....can't believe i did that...but dunnoe whether they hear anot....but who care...i said my piece....it goes sumthing like ..." walao....u f**kers lah....especially that JIAO BIN.....u suck big time....bully pple...kanna sai lah.....with that mah pok face that that @#$%^& hairstyle....careful walk kanna bang by cars lah...." then i walk out from lecture theathre....and went for nxt tutorial....i mean come on...grow up.....u tink u really beng meh....onli act beng lor...tua sia fer wad...kanna sai....

nvm....so thats wad was funnie todae lah....nothing much jus freakin happi i finish he freakin IISO Project...but still got so mani project sia....then i erm...have a confession....i alreadi confess to chuan yan and swee hoon.....but please dun tell (toking to chuan yan and swee hoon)...but i doubt it is lah....jus trying to be funnie

thats all....bb

blah blah blah...

2005-06-06T07:30:00.000+08:00

......hmm...dunnow wad to sae sia...everybody asking me to update bloggie....realli wish to....but i dun even haf the time to erm...write my name on the foolscap paper....yea its that bad...i am currently on the verge of going crazy....namely because of...:

1. For TP INT student, we have to print out own lecture notes, tutorial worksheets and lab exercises b4 going for ani lecture tutorial or lab...unlike engineering students who gets all their paper stuff printed out for them and even binded up nicely....
2. The papers are driving me crazy...i am about to sleep on my lecture notes and eat tutorial worksheets and clean my ass my lab exercises...
3. Tmr will be week 3 which means....project deadlines are coming up real fast...
4. Once again tmr will be week 3 which means in another 3-4 weeks time...i am gonna have exams....
5. There are too much stuff to do....
6. I am not growing up the rite way...deprived of happy teenage life....
7. I am already a little wacko up there if you noe me....so....now is jus getting worse...BIG DEAL!!

I am so sick man....i am like having headaches every dae...and sumtimes...it developes to migrains...SHIT...nvm....and the books....my gawd....have i mentioned how scary can a bunch of paper gets when they all come at a time...i seriously have a phobia for papers...yah u heard me...PAPERS....run when u see papers....they are scary thingys that drive u up the tree....and great...i gotta repair my bike...its injured for like 1 week alreadi...srry bike...no time...blame it on the PAPERS...hmmm....darn...

I went to the PC fair yesterdae and i gt my own laptop....toshiba....not the best but wadever...its mine...wahhahah.....no more sharing of stuff...*grins* and guess wad i saw.....JANE...she selling toshiba laptop Tecra...yeah...but i didn't get from her coz i wasn't interested in Tecra...
Then i went to the stupid book fair todae....seriously....it SUX BIG TIME...its so china...even if there are english books....its ancient....dusty and stuff....and there was a stupid sales lady who was psychoing pple to order TIMES...the stupid magazine....once again....the STUPID MAGAZINE...she was saeing how gd that STUPID magazine was and it has movie sypnosis and nice articles..and after awhile of seeing i was not interested...she saed it was gd....then sae i was HANDICAPPED....that BITCH....i handicapped...if i were to ask her wads an RJ 45 connector and a UTP wire....would u noe u !@#$%^&*)(*&^%$#@! woman...u wouldn't so dun sae i am handicapped coz u may jolly well be sitting at the streets when u r old and i am gonna be a billionair u.......KUTTU...!! ARHZ.....so pissed....i maybe stupid but y shd i be called stupid by a bimbo....gee...wadever....

Arh....realised i took up too much time...gotta rush back to tutorial worksheets....and packing of stuff....darn..and ...i am into comics again....hehe....and nobody play pool with me....sobsob....partly all no time including me lah....then...yah TIME is the FACTOR....arh......TIME....i am gonna get u.....u KUTTU!! and...i really really really really missed the old daes...in secondary school...lots of memories...adn the roads we used to tk and the t-mart....nv forget that place.....kept me sane in secondary sch daes....yeah.....tutorial worksheets calling me le.....PAPERS......ARH.....

2005-04-02T15:09:00.000+08:00

yeah...wazzup pple...todae is the best dae of my hell of these mani daes....wahahhaahah....

This morning met JM and TSH @ pasir ris interchange then we walk to downtown east then go pasir ris bowl...we went bowling and alot of funnie stuff and we were laughing about all our stuff....then JM was introducing the lucky ball that gt her a turkey that time....but the luck kinda wear off....haha....we gt some strike...mani spares and lots of north south pins whereby the last two pins are completely opposite of each other....so we r not remy ong and we obviously are not trained liddat...so yeah....dumbass...then we were laughing at each others imitation of cyndi's honey song...stupid man...i mean like....grow up...dun be so kiddy...and we kinda agree she will be a good girlfriend for someone....like her...wahahha......x_x....then we went to food court at whitesands then we saw alot of students...we even saw jasmine's bf...he's in MJ....

Then i went back to tampines my homeland...wahha...then meet up with lsx go watch Ms Congee 2...yah dats the short form and abviously is not ms porridge....oh ya btw...another joke...was sms-ing lsx and then suddenly i gt a strike...then i type strike..and then he replied...there's a show called strike?? is it nice....?? i laughed till i nearly pull the bowling ball in my face....wahhaha....kk back...the show was very funnie...coz its sandra bullock...yah and there was this little girl in the show called..........PRISCILLA....and thats me....wahaha...gt a shock...i tot someone was calling me sia....and we both nearly puked popcorns....i am so afraid of popcorn now....hahah....phobia...my whole intestines are filled with popcorn....(ewww) then was still very bored...bored...bored..so went back to eat hot dogs @ orange julius....not bad i shd sae...long time ever since i ate a hot dog...used to eat it everytime after swimming lessons....but that was years ago...then went to my grans hse...lsx went back home....

Guessed wad....my father is a matchmaker.....god bless...i will not go further into details....i am laughing my intestines filled with popcorns out...but the girl @ fers see quite okay lahz...but u see long...like abit obasan type...yuck...so ya...todaes great...coz i get to tok to my dear after so long...dun blame him coz busy...gotta catch up with 3 moths work...so kampate sempai...haha....gtg...go chat online le....bb

long vacation

2005-03-29T19:08:00.000+08:00

hmm...woke up early in morning @ 5.15am again...hehe...after dat continue watch my long vacation...haha...todae completed about 6 disc....kanna hooked liaoz...hehe...by tmr sure can finish...left 2 disc onli...hahaha....hmm very nice sia... but the photographer sux...how can liddat go spoil the show...the pianist and the crazy ger together better...haha....oops...its the show lahz...haha...hmm...went to check the DAE and the HTMaE thingy...still liddat..no answers yet..sianz....dunnoe wad to do le...coz mumy come back cannot watch show...jus play my piano...the close to you in the long vacation show...hehe...not bad lahz...haha...todae onli tues...i wish for sch to come fast...so dat not so bored @ home althou there are entertainment...but sumthing is still missing...yah...missing....missing....missing....haiz....missing...nvm...gotta thank lsx...my saviour....for my sanity...hehe..thanks alot dude...hmm..yesterdae feeling unwell...during dinner time nearly vomited out...then went to toilet to puke....nothing thou....but then still very miserable...face green men..after slp le better...this morning better liaoz...haiz...yah jean...i am updating everydae...too bored...it is part and parcel oflife le...everydae wwtch show...practice piano...learn things...do cross-stitching then play mouse....boring sia...dunnoe when i wan plan go out....coz one week once...so mus choose....haha...yah....

2005-03-29T09:25:00.000+08:00

hmm....yesterdae did went swimming in the end...coz raining then dun wan little cousin fall sick so...nope....no swimming...after watching tv and eating at ah ma's hse then went back...gt home tok to momo for awhile then he gotta go makan dinner then Zzz...zzzZ coz todae gt sch...then went to chuck out my mum's cheese cake....darn...DARN...it shrunk...coz i guess my mum use the wrong cream...shd use a dairy cream...so yah...failed...but still edible...nt bad...very cheesy....

Yup...todae si another dae....woke up at 5.15...hehe...watch kate and leopold then sang karaoke for awhile...waiting for my heavenly disc to come...lsx was to deliver it to my hse...he lent me this japanese sequel...long vacation...i noe it is a history drama...but hey...i am bored...so yah....normal...i have watched lord of the ring all 3 sequel like over 10 time these few daes...boredom can kill the cat...then tada....!!! my vcds came...went down to collect then came up watch...it was hilarious...maybe a little over the describtion but yah....it cheered me up....made me and my aunt hooked to it....coz of boredom....hahah...then went to study my japanese...chimalogy....then gt bored play with mouse....hehe named linda...ovidia deceased for about 1 week le...priscilla gonna go soon coz of tumour sickness...linda is still healthy like a bull...pics of her and her nest... "she's cleaning hersef coz i messed up her cleaned fur...hehe..." "her nest...smart ehh?? jus tissue papers...nice u can't even see her inside once she hides..." "enormous ehh...very plump and fluffy"

jus to update

2005-03-28T08:37:00.000+08:00

hmm...haiz....yesterdae ate curry chix...aunt cook...then when makan the time...tot of sumthing--the last time i ate curry chix...memorable...hehe...yeah...todae gotta wake up early...mus go temple coz of the qing ming thingy...then after go joo chiat makan prawn mee (mine was bee hoon...HATES...the yellow fat mee...yuck)...then came home...now mum baking the cheese cake that she learnt yesterdae and brought back to try....very fluffy...like cotton candy..yummy....hehe....later going swimming with my little cousin adrick...he very cute one...later c can get pic of him anot....very chubby....i am called the big dragon he small dragon....small me 12yrs ....hehe....hmm...jus finished practicing piano...my fingers sux...can't control properly sia...haiz...things nowadays realli have changed....i dunnoe...maybe i am being paranoia...hmm...can't wait for the enrolment package to come...anxious...wanna see wad it is all about....*ting* haha the oven call me liaoz....go makan cake...btw...seige is also baking chocolate chips cookies....*drools....*...bb

2005-03-27T05:30:00.000+08:00

haiz....very sianz...hmmm...@ least i got quite daily update la horhz....improvement?? Yeah~hmm...so bored @ home completed another 2 cross-stitch thingy...

very dark...hehe..photography skills sux...wah lao...now having a hell of a headache....very pain...machiam head wanna crack...sobsob...last nite gt nitemare sia...dreamt of a female ghost chasing after me....i was shaking on the bed like mad...cannot slp...keep breaking out in cold sweat...den keep forcing myself to tink of nice nice stuff like butterflies (hehe) then finally fell asleep....nothing much to sae bb...

Good Fridae...

2005-03-26T09:50:00.000+08:00

hehe...todae is gd fridae...so parents all not working so todae planned early morning go east coast park cycle and makan breakfast...first went there then go makan macdonald coz my father complaint hungry...then walk walk walk back to the bicycle kiosk...on the wae we went past the beginner's corner for those learning how to in-line skate...my father ge cute...coz down there gt an instructor teaching how to inline-skate then my father machaim expert liddat...keep toking about this and that...but actually the twist is....he doesn't noe how to skate.... then went to the bicycle kiosk all four of us borrow bike....my boke quite cool lahz....very sleek and fast...then from there cycle all the wae to the PA sailing club there....quite far thou...then near the hawker centre there they building sumthing...coz tmr gt the biathalon down there then the building the tents....alot of army men....very fun sia todae..very long nv go out with family liddat liaoz...

The we went to Bugis...go temple pray to give thanks for letting me pass my O's and for getting into a course lahz...then went to sim lim square...we bought 4 flash drive...they all took the 256MB then i took the 512MB one...coz father sae i nd more....then my sis bought MP3...jeaous....hers better than mine...sobsob but nv mine..then we went to see my laptop...saw one nt bad all the function pa ka liao...everything have men...but father sae go back discuss fers...see wad gd....mus study features...so okay lorhz....

BTW todae at east coast park saw pple...sim lim square also saw pple.....east coast park while cycling i cycle past Mr Vincent Lee...he no see me but then i sms him....funnie...then further on...saw Mr Richard...the freak....haha...he half naked then gt the shark-fin hairstyle then wear his favourite sunglass then walk his dog...damn big....haha....Then went to sim lim square saw Wenqi....walk walk walk then saw him his sis and his mum....then i punch him on back...then he sae i come buy com arhz....i saed i no $$ hehe.....so dats all lahz....still waiting for HTMaE and DAE results...pray hard....

Hmm....dunnoe lehz...like very long no tok to him liaoz...haiz...i oso dunnoe lahz...dun tink better..tink le me onli get sad...then will end up quarelling...so leave it...but realli miss the memorable times we had thou...the pig drawing contest....the dunnoe how to do poa mus die thingy.....haiz....i dunnoe....jus leave it...guess he's jus busy about the all new JC and his d2 thingy ba....

TP life...

2005-03-25T02:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm yesterdae became a little hardworking and went online to check out TP...woah...there is gonna be a huge change in my life...its no more spoon feeding where u ask ur bloody class chairman to get stuff and when u dun get them blame the chairman...(favourite past-time)...hehe....its now either u go find out and get it or...judgement dae is here.....u will be lost....hmmm.....gonna tk time to adapt to poly life i guess....which means everything is gonna change....some examples like....
1. I would have to pay a rough $5,000 for jus the tuition fees and the other fees....minus the expenses and book stuff....
2.I have to have a minimum of 129 credits (I still dunnoe how this thing work) in order to graduate...
3.I have to start school on 24 May 2005...

Darn...seems so difficult to adapt sia....and guess wad....who is in the same school in TP as me...Boon Seng and Ivan Chew....woo....no comments to dat....

Haiz....everydae is jus passing a dae...how do i past my time...?? Blogging...DVDs...Cross stitching.....boring sia....haiz....haiz...haiz...

Picture of my completed cross-stitching....i noe it sux....jus proud of it...

2005-03-24T15:35:00.000+08:00

Hmm...wanted to blog yesterdae but had no time....stupid excuse...? but yea thats the fact...

Hmm...got the results of posting yesterdae...went to tp for the course mobile and wireless computing...when i got hte results there was no happiness nor sadness...no happiness coz it wasn't my intentional course as in...wanted to go HTM( Hospitality and Tourism Managment) but yet went into this course and not sad cause i @ least haf a place to go...not thrown into seclusion and die...yippe...i am thankful my parents did not freak out like seige mum...for once they understand the situation and handle it right there and then...bless them...

Then i ask my mum the kinda of question that the would give me the u-noe-u-shldn't-always-go-out-everytime kinda sound and told me----i could onli go out once a week....i mean get a life...y can't i go out...i haf no studies...no work...i am just plain rotting @ home....oh man~ but the twist came...she let me out....hehe

Went out met Seige fers then on the way we saw his freak guy who came saying he was from blah blah blah and we nd to donate $10 and for out bloody appreaciation he is going to give us a......(hold ur breath....).....a CALCULATOR...Woah...a calculator big deal...! Then seigy kept quiet the whole time as he blah blah blah on....then there was silence...then i said...can we just walk off...? hehe....then he damn buay song then blah blah blah...then seigy gt pissed and gave him the bloody $10...i mean its not abt the $10...i mean pple have the right not to donate....they are harrasing pple noe to donate....in order words FORCE...! EVIL。

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2005-03-24T03:47:00.000+08:00

continued form part one.....

Then nvm...we said if we come back and we still saw him we would then donate...then he said HE WAS GOING OFF IN 5 MINUTES....then we donated (as said in the previous post)...then we go...walk the music junction disc out of stock...went yamaha...nothing to do....then we stumble to the arcade...played two round of car racing...i was second but fun..very de-stressing...den went popular....nothing...by then was damn hungry but jean still didn't arrived...so me and seige went yoshinoya eat...both of us ate teriyaki chick meal...den went up jus to see jean...then we had nothing to do as the spongebob squarepants movie onli starting @ 2.35pm....so decided go play pool...went there....met ivan shixiong morris and guan zhong....we played the 9 feet one for about 1hr plus then rush to movie liaoz....but seriously if e7 wanted a gathering...it shd be @ k-pool.....everybody always appears there u noe.......

The movie was...dumb stupid freaky...and hilarious...there were even shooting popcorns.....damn funnie....then went hm...haiz..this week cannot go out le...boring....summore bf go sch le....todae fers dae..orientation ya....quite proud of him...went to his MJ...the school he was working towards to...i wrote that freaking name "MJ" all over his table...the majiong paper lahz....hehe....the chant work....as for me....stuck with ivan for another 3 years...same sch with seige for another 3 years..(shes in info com)and yeah,....another chapter of my life is gonna begin...

Haiz...

2005-03-22T14:45:00.000+08:00

I dunnoe...jus feeling liddat....jus liddat~...haiz..was forced to sign up fer a computer course...called PC maintanence Upgrade and Repair...god man...i am gonna grow up to be a computer maintanence person....cool or wad~ haiz...5 daes course from the 11/4 to the 20/ 4 every mon wed and fri...dats is not the best yet....

Tmr is death dae...decide my fate....haiz...hope i can make it to sumwhere...didn't realli did very well...so hoping fer w miracle...hehe...guess the news of those pple who mk it to JC are to report on wed @ 7.30...and that means....left tmr...haiz....and i dun even noe i can make it to meet up....or he can make it to meet up...great...drift....thats wad i hate....but nvm...we gonna tk things easy...or i would alreadi have died...hehe

Had piano lessons this morning....haiz....i am a klutz in piano seriously...idunnoe how i mk it to grade 8....mus besome bribery or sumthing...i can't even control my fingers...geez....alreadi failed once...can't have it happen again....or i am DEAD...tmr is death dae...hope the stupid system dun hang again or realli f**k the system...pathetic system our great Nation has...hanging up @ the rite time...and all they noe how to sae after that is..."yeah the mistake have been cleared up....things are better now... we have implemented new advenced system to support blah blah blah...IT WILL NV HAPPEN AGAIN..." YAH RITE.....nonsense....nv believe in these shit....

Haiz...tmr my aunt will be going to australia for vacation....gonna miss her...thou its not for long but yet....my godma my aunt and my gran are much closer to me than my mum...tink i mentioned that loads of time...but it is a fact...they brought me up ever since i was young....stay and lived there....nv went hm...so u can't blame me...

Hehe todae wasn't so bad...went for piano lesson...came back tinking wad to eat fer lunch....tot of LJS den me and my aunt went to buy...walk walk walk then went to The Body Shop...hehe saw a lip gloss....quite nice.....smells heavenly....likt the fruiteller sweet.....deciding whether to buy coz cost $8.90..den hesistating den i saw the thing.....discount 30%...now $5.90...wham...no second tots....BOUGHT.....yummy....den walk walk walk....den me and my aunt..(maid) feel like eating yoshinoya....den went ahead...she saw her beef rice...and b4 aniting could be said...." give me a beef rice combo meal"...this is wad food can do to a person... i ate the teriyaki rice thingy...nice....miso soup was gd....hehe...but as usual....i dun eat the veg...went ot my aun as a side dish....hehe...so dats all i guess....btw LORD OF THE RING was gd....watch it mani times...could rmb the lines.....not all thou....i mus be mad to do that....

So i guess thats all quite a long post todae....hehe...coz gt time..actually wanted to tok...but hes staying over @ frens hse so gotta skip dat...jus hope for three things...tmr can go out...go out with frens and bf and my posting dun suck like my results....bb

hmm...changes again

2005-03-20T07:20:00.000+08:00

hehe...sis did thingys fer webbie again...nw with counters and the links are done up...no mor sardines...hehe...eeps...and there she goes :" TAGBOARDS"...tio kan...see compliments to my sis....lolx...boring..practically rotting @ hm...listening to enya disc...very inspirational...den doing cross-stitching...sis gonna kill me fer doing so fast....very tiring...eyes crossed xd...gtg....nd to check up some courses to go for otherwise muj nagging till very irritatin.....bb

hehe

2005-03-19T05:09:00.000+08:00

wahahaha...todae very enthusiatic so blog another time...hehe...i tink it has to do with my sista...ever since she did sumthing about my blog...it became abit more alive...so more interested to blog...otherwise..very lazy...which jean has complaint alot of time liaoz...yep...haiz...posting of school coming out le...hope i can go the dunnoe wad engineering thingy...i applied for 3 thingys...first the JAE then the DAE then the HTmaE...kiasu horhz...no choice my future...hehe...hmmm...for JAE my choices are hospitality and tourism, second is markting..then business IT then interactive media design then mobile and wireless technology then interior design all at TP...actually wanted to choose some at SP but lazy go there because i alreadi tested coz when i go to work i also go buona vista then SP is onli at dover so its no different and trust me...if there is a course early in the morning i am gonna DIE...hmmm...thats all that stupid momo....is irritating... me...he is ARHZZZZ....i am gonna terminate him....whahaha

sLeEpY...

2005-03-19T00:43:00.000+08:00

Darn...woke up so early...dunnoe y can't slp...maybe used to it like wake up early in the morning to go work lahz...oh ya...jus to introdue...i used to work as a temp staff in PSB Corporation...nice place nice environment and nice experience...learned alot from working...expecially my office are with all adults...and guess wad...i am the only girl in my department so that is to mean that i am the only girl in my office...xd..oops gotta go...sista bugging me..her fren coming to do project heard it is about building a house model...wahahhaa....twin towers...

My nEw blOgGiE...

2005-03-18T15:10:00.000+08:00

hmm...my sista helped me did this bloggie thingy...as u noe i am a computer freak....could blow a computer up in like...let me see half a second??wahahha...i noe i very pro..thank you...hehe...hmmm...hope u people dun mind to like see me link you...got the link from jean webby...thanks jean...hmm...nothing much now...gonna tok to my boifren now...bb...hehe...